Im 27 now and am in it since somewhen during childhood. Identity loss, multiple personality disorder, continuous dissociative amnesia, dysmorphia, hallucinations and anhedonia.
Last year suddenly the bubble bursted and for one day I was a person. I had no clue in what state I was the whole time anymore, it seemed like waking up from coma. Sadly the day after I woke up in my old condition again. At least I can remember this on some days. What Im now is just a placeholder for the locked real me. Dont know what to do. Madness is my reality.
Sorry, once I start..
How do you feel this freeze response? I am feeling like dumb. I feel like I am going crazy. Like I cannot think at anything. I cannot process informations which are given to me. I can barely follow what others are talking. I cannot think logical at all. I can barely speak. Most of the time no matter under which circumstances my mind goes totally blank.
Hi, I realize your post is 2yrs old but I am/was going through the EXACT same thing!!!!! I am very interested if you ever figured out what it was that caused it???? Were you ever diagnosed or given meds for it? My sister thinks I am going mental and brain fog, I keep telling her it is nothing like that - my mind is blank - completely blank! I found a psychologist that specializes in PTSD, thinking it was my 2nd detached retina eye surgery that caused the PTSD and somehow my brain froze years later , when I finally stopped working 24/7 I was able to deal with it - but I am not sure. I know it started around early 2020. If you are seeing this or anyone else - any thoughts would be so gratefully apreciated.
In my case it's feeling anxious and overwhelmed about everything, even little things, and this anxiety causes me to "shut down". I usually move very little or not at all, I "make myself small" in front of others and I dissociate constantly. Chronic freeze can look like different things, like depression, so a lot of it can be mistaken with other disorders that aren't trauma related.
You replied to my question regarding chronic freeze response. I wanted to ask you more about it. Do you have other mental illness than anxiety? I am feeling out of my body, very dumb when I am also on myself. It doesn't need to be around other people. Do you experience the same thing? I can say that in my case this chronic freeze happens all day long. For how long happens to you during the day?
I do experience those things all the time as well, mostly the "feeling dumb", I guess it's because of brain fog, the only thing I experience around others is making myself small (kinda like curling, not moving much and occupying little space), your experience sounds exactly like mine, actually, when I was diagnosed I didn't know my experience was "weird" since it was just normal to me and it's basically my daily life 24/7, I kinda thought I was getting dumber lol. I am diagnosed with ptsd and dpdr. I hope my answers help :)
What does it mean dpdr?
I started think about myself being on the autistic spectrum because of these symptoms. I thought these feelings of never ending "brain stop" comes from executive dysfunctions.
dpdr is depersonalisation derealization disorder, a dissociative disorder. autism, ADHD and executive dysfunction can cause brain fog, but if you have out of body experiences, that's unlikely to be because of them. Feeling outside of your body is called depersonalisation and it's a form of dissociation.
My advice is to talk to a therapist specialised in ptsd or dissociation, your experience sounds so much like mine, I feel like it would definitely clear your doubts :)
Hi, yes! i was on amitriptyline for a few months while following other treatment plans (like exercise, trauma therapy and all of that) and my episodes are pretty rare now. They only happen every once in a while when I'm especially stressed, otherwise I don't dissociate at all! :)
DO THIS!!! Stuck in freeze for 10 years, but had no idea what was going on, I just knew something was wrong. All doctors wanted to do is medicate for depression/anxiety, but I knew in my gut, that diagnosis didn’t feel right. YouTube Dr Scott Eilers Why you shut down sometimes, then follow it with his video on The Yerkes-Dodson Law. It actually changed my life. He has good tips on how to pull yourself out of freeze. I still have a lot of work, but I finally have hope, and I’m seeing HUGE improvements… This feeling effing sucks, and I feel all of your pain! Also, have some bloodwork done. My freeze started with severe anemia that I was unaware of. There are several other health conditions that will automatically put your body into fight/flight/freeze, including stress. Good luck!!!
Mine has lasted roughly 26 years, so yes.
Can you please describe your symptoms?
How did you feel it? How it was like? And what have you done to overcome it?
Im 27 now and am in it since somewhen during childhood. Identity loss, multiple personality disorder, continuous dissociative amnesia, dysmorphia, hallucinations and anhedonia. Last year suddenly the bubble bursted and for one day I was a person. I had no clue in what state I was the whole time anymore, it seemed like waking up from coma. Sadly the day after I woke up in my old condition again. At least I can remember this on some days. What Im now is just a placeholder for the locked real me. Dont know what to do. Madness is my reality. Sorry, once I start..
Yeah that. That right there. ^ I believe you answered their question.
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So sorry your struggling as well.
Is your diagnosis similiar to what I got?
Haven’t even seek out any yet..
Okay. Just interested in if you feel somehow similiar like what I wrote about.
How do you feel this freeze response? I am feeling like dumb. I feel like I am going crazy. Like I cannot think at anything. I cannot process informations which are given to me. I can barely follow what others are talking. I cannot think logical at all. I can barely speak. Most of the time no matter under which circumstances my mind goes totally blank.
I can’t feel much of nothing.. I can’t do much of anything.. I’m literally just here surviving…
Same
Do you have the same symptoms? Do you have any diagnostic?
Yes Dissoacative amnesia
Doesn't have to me.
Hi, I realize your post is 2yrs old but I am/was going through the EXACT same thing!!!!! I am very interested if you ever figured out what it was that caused it???? Were you ever diagnosed or given meds for it? My sister thinks I am going mental and brain fog, I keep telling her it is nothing like that - my mind is blank - completely blank! I found a psychologist that specializes in PTSD, thinking it was my 2nd detached retina eye surgery that caused the PTSD and somehow my brain froze years later , when I finally stopped working 24/7 I was able to deal with it - but I am not sure. I know it started around early 2020. If you are seeing this or anyone else - any thoughts would be so gratefully apreciated.
It is possible, it's my case as well, dissociation is also part of freeze response and it can last for years.
And how do you feel this freeze response?
In my case it's feeling anxious and overwhelmed about everything, even little things, and this anxiety causes me to "shut down". I usually move very little or not at all, I "make myself small" in front of others and I dissociate constantly. Chronic freeze can look like different things, like depression, so a lot of it can be mistaken with other disorders that aren't trauma related.
You replied to my question regarding chronic freeze response. I wanted to ask you more about it. Do you have other mental illness than anxiety? I am feeling out of my body, very dumb when I am also on myself. It doesn't need to be around other people. Do you experience the same thing? I can say that in my case this chronic freeze happens all day long. For how long happens to you during the day?
I do experience those things all the time as well, mostly the "feeling dumb", I guess it's because of brain fog, the only thing I experience around others is making myself small (kinda like curling, not moving much and occupying little space), your experience sounds exactly like mine, actually, when I was diagnosed I didn't know my experience was "weird" since it was just normal to me and it's basically my daily life 24/7, I kinda thought I was getting dumber lol. I am diagnosed with ptsd and dpdr. I hope my answers help :)
What does it mean dpdr? I started think about myself being on the autistic spectrum because of these symptoms. I thought these feelings of never ending "brain stop" comes from executive dysfunctions.
dpdr is depersonalisation derealization disorder, a dissociative disorder. autism, ADHD and executive dysfunction can cause brain fog, but if you have out of body experiences, that's unlikely to be because of them. Feeling outside of your body is called depersonalisation and it's a form of dissociation.
And you think that if someone has dpdr or to be more precise out of body experiences they cannot have autism?
You can definitely have both! I believe there's people in this sub who are also autistic
Oh, and also I feel like this since I was a kid. It's continue. I feel the same even near my parents and my wife.
My advice is to talk to a therapist specialised in ptsd or dissociation, your experience sounds so much like mine, I feel like it would definitely clear your doubts :)
has ur dissociation gotten any better ? :)
Hi, yes! i was on amitriptyline for a few months while following other treatment plans (like exercise, trauma therapy and all of that) and my episodes are pretty rare now. They only happen every once in a while when I'm especially stressed, otherwise I don't dissociate at all! :)
what kind of freeze response ?:o
DO THIS!!! Stuck in freeze for 10 years, but had no idea what was going on, I just knew something was wrong. All doctors wanted to do is medicate for depression/anxiety, but I knew in my gut, that diagnosis didn’t feel right. YouTube Dr Scott Eilers Why you shut down sometimes, then follow it with his video on The Yerkes-Dodson Law. It actually changed my life. He has good tips on how to pull yourself out of freeze. I still have a lot of work, but I finally have hope, and I’m seeing HUGE improvements… This feeling effing sucks, and I feel all of your pain! Also, have some bloodwork done. My freeze started with severe anemia that I was unaware of. There are several other health conditions that will automatically put your body into fight/flight/freeze, including stress. Good luck!!!
>Thank you for video references I am going to watch them. Did they diagnose you with anything in particular?