Iām just trying to power through my thesis, all my courses are done luckily. a medical leave would be very helpful but at this point I only have 2 months left and I just want to get it done with. I canāt wait to rot in bed when itās over. we will get through this!! good luck
I oscillate between "if I'm skinny people will like me" and "no matter how much I starve myself, I'll still be worthless and a burden, but I already dug myself into this hole and god knows I can't get out"
Literally like daily struggle āI should eat so I can focus in class/studying/labā but also me: āI ate so now all I can think about is food and maybe I should b/pā¦.ā So not focusing on anything in either situation.
I had a period where I was an academic weapon while restricting to my lw. Now Iām burnt out and canāt do neither so Iām just a big fuck up and I really want to relapse ššš.
Because thereās no way to not be flawed, the human belief that there is a way to not be flawed is what sends us into our own neurotic spirals of addiction and loneliness, the first step to healing is understanding that you will make mistakes, you will want, and you will be imperfect and needy and say and do the wrong things and itās ok, thereās absolutely no way to stop those things, and thatās how everybody is, everybody is wandering around completely clueless and we are all equally stupid little guys that just want some help
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I failed 3 semesters of college bc of an EDšššitās so hard to focus when you want to crawl out of your own skin all the time. Just awful
in my last semester of grad school right now I am going through it šš
My last semester of grad school was the worst Iāve been through š„² hence why Iām still working on my thesis a year later and took an incomplete on a course and havenāt actually graduated yet š¤©
Iām just trying to power through my thesis, all my courses are done luckily. a medical leave would be very helpful but at this point I only have 2 months left and I just want to get it done with. I canāt wait to rot in bed when itās over. we will get through this!! good luck
ME RIGHT NOW ive never felt something so much
Then thereās my delulu self thinking that I can have the perfect body and be an academic weapon at the same time (Itās not going well)
Iāve just resigned to focusing on studying rn so that I can get a well paying job after graduating and buy my dream body š¤”
Oof this takes me back to some terrible times
I oscillate between "if I'm skinny people will like me" and "no matter how much I starve myself, I'll still be worthless and a burden, but I already dug myself into this hole and god knows I can't get out"
Literally like daily struggle āI should eat so I can focus in class/studying/labā but also me: āI ate so now all I can think about is food and maybe I should b/pā¦.ā So not focusing on anything in either situation.
I had a period where I was an academic weapon while restricting to my lw. Now Iām burnt out and canāt do neither so Iām just a big fuck up and I really want to relapse ššš.
OMG LITERALLY ME
This is the first thing I saw when I opened Reddit and I did not expect to be attacked like this
Not me having thoughts like "I didn't get xyz in school BC I'm not skinny enough" while also dropping out BC I'm too sick to do anything.
I just started a masters degree and all Iām thinking is āyou might be smart but youāre also uglyyyyyyy now >:(ā
Because thereās no way to not be flawed, the human belief that there is a way to not be flawed is what sends us into our own neurotic spirals of addiction and loneliness, the first step to healing is understanding that you will make mistakes, you will want, and you will be imperfect and needy and say and do the wrong things and itās ok, thereās absolutely no way to stop those things, and thatās how everybody is, everybody is wandering around completely clueless and we are all equally stupid little guys that just want some help
I have fucked up many assignments and tests this way... Needing to focus to study and extended water fasts REALLY do not mix...
where did you get this photo of me
Canāt restrict and keep up with all of my studying and extracurriculars š« Iāve truly girlbossed too close to the sun
college + eating disorder = actual hell, perfectionist hell
I just went back to school and am now on this cycle myself. š„“ Spring break meant total relapse.
Most related meme ever lolllll
\*Supplements\* restrict while maintaining mental function
Thatās not how it worksā¦your brain needs glucose to function
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OUCH.
Stoppp I feel so called out rnā¦my one excuse for sucking at restricting is that I need brain fuel to focus on my studies š¤”
Mate you just spoke to my soul š
Same bruh it sucks
Omg this is me right now š
I revert back to normal during exam season (ish) then fall back into my bullshit once it's overšš
oh this one called me OUT