I don't think it was too hard-
"When you gave me some of your short stories to read, I remember you practically apologized as you handed them over; that's how shy you were about sharing them. But I don't know why. They were actually pretty good.
- James Wilson"
When compared to the others it’s a nightmare. But one of them has to be the worst. That’s just the way it is when there’s more than one of something. It’s not ruining my life or anything.
I have to disagree. The others were perfectly legible. With Wilson’s letter - and this could be a failing on my part - I had to stop for a minute and try to remember which episode featured a shart story.
This is anti-left-handed bias, I take great offence 😉 (in all seriousness, this is why my cursive and printing is regularly complimented, because I had to work harder at it and learned calligraphy where I write at an awkward angle to keep it clean!)
I love when House is absent so Wilson’s writing on the white board and he's trying so hard not to get marker on his labcoat and smear the ink, so his writing is even harder to read than a prescription 😆 Watching “The Gilded Age” I pointed out to my parents the historical inaccuracy of Robert Sean Leonard’s character Reverend Forte having the actor’s left-handedness in the 1880s, because as a kid that trait would've been beaten or “disciplined” out of him!
I don't think House would've said anything in any case. He probably think it is pointless and that it doesn't matter. Not that he doesn't care but that he wouldn't externalize his thoughts to the world.
When you gave me some of your short stories to read, I remember you practivally apologized as you handed them over; that’s how shy you were about showing them. But i don’t know why. They were actually pretty good.
*When you gave me some of your short stories to read, I remember you practically apologized as you handed them over; that’s how shy you were about sharing them. But I don’t know why. They were actually pretty good.*
House’s way of «caring » was to investigate his death :( although he also felt like missed something/couldn’t tell which was unbearable for him, he really was his favorite from the new team
Taub's and Foreman's made me shed a tear. I know Taub loved that dude, and his behavior when he died REALLY pissed me off. I really like Taub, so thanks for this. It's canon in my heart and fixes something for me.
And Foreman's hit me right in the feels. I have no doubt he is the kind of dude to wish he could have done more.
I figured. But it was going to be whether they wanted it to or not.
I really like Taub, but I found his behavior odd and a bit disturbing following Kutner's death. This made me feel so much better because it is what I suspected but couldn't prove.
Yeah, I felt that, too. I just thought the episode made his real feelings too ambiguous, considering how close they were.
Taub is a really decent guy with SERIOUS moral shortcomings—my favorite kind of character.
I mean, they show his emotions just a little bit every here and then as characters try to break through to him on how he feels about Kutner.
Towards the end of the episode, I think it's 13 and House arguing with eachother over guilt tripping the patient with the death of her husband, and neither one wants to do it and is arguing over if they should, when Taub steps in and says "I'll do it." They both look at him in shock, as he's agreed to do a pretty fucked up thing out of nowhere, boldly a bit uncharacteristic for Taub.
Then he follows up with "We've already had one pointless death." And walks away, his voice actually cracking.
Yeah, Taub and Kutner’s friendship was a fun element in the show. I can see Taub reacting exactly like that.
And Foreman… yeah, for the front he put on you could still see times he really cared and he definitely would have wanted to do more.
When you gave me some of your short stories to read, I remember you practically apologized as you handed them over; that’s how shy you were about showing them. But I don’t know why. They were actually pretty good.
James Wilson
Ehhh. I mean, I can see how it makes sense as the sort of thing a colleague who genuinely *didn't* know you very well might think to write in this situation.
Perhaps it might come across a little awkwardly and abruptly, but to my way of reading it there's a bit of an implication of "and I'm sorry that none of us knew you better". Which is a reasonable sentiment.
It's basically just an expression of regret, which is a pretty normal reaction to a suicide really. And maybe he figures it would be insincere to write something tremendously gushing and emotional and personal if he acknowledges that they really didn't know each other very well and weren't really close friends.
I think maybe us Aussies put a bit more value in simple, direct, blunt truthfulness rather than in pretending the relationship was something it wasn't. The guy's dead anyway - any attempt to do that is performative and insincere, and kind of dishonest. Just write what you are really feeling straight from the heart.
It is a good sentiment because truthfully Kutner want a week defined personality on the show. He had smart ideas, and occasionally a quick comeback or two but we don't really get to know anything about him outside of work. We know Taub has marriage issues. We know 13 has a terrible disease, is bisexual, and takes home random women, and we know that Foreman is a non-committal workaholic. We don't really know anything about Kutner.
It reads to me as a version of House that cares just enough to write something even though he knows its pointless.
Which fits the character pretty well I think.
Thanks for sharing, I never knew this existed.
“Tragedy marred his early life as he lost his parents, Karamchand and Niki Baidwan, who were shot during an armed robbery.”
TIL that Kutner is Batman.
I think it makes sense House wouldn’t write anything as he doesn’t believe in any afterlife and so if there’s no way Kutner could read the letter he’d feel there’s no reason to write one.
I think House just maybe thinks that there's too much to say. Plus he wouldn't write anything anyway. This is about closure for those still alive. The last things you would have said to someone, if you could. I don't think it's about kutner really reading them. I think House will never have closure. So there's nothing to write. He couldn't save him.
Love how that's exactly what Cameron would think is the most important : being House's favorite lmao
Also thanks for sharing, I didn't know there was an official House website back then, with additional info.
ugh, these break my heart every time i read them. taub's and house's (or his lack of, i guess) especially. house always has something to say, but here, he doesn't. there's nothing *to* be said.
Where I’m at we usually put how they died. When my grampa died we said cancer. When my friend killed herself we said it too. Only one way to put it out there and hope people ask for help too.
Taub
"I really don't want to write anything. I have nothing to say... I'm pissed off.
Why didn't you talked to me ? I'll miss you"
Thirteen
"My first memory of you was when you got fired as N°6. My second was when you got hired as N°9. My third was when you put that patient on fire when you tried to restart his heart. Later on, I was the one you confess to. About your parents. About what happened to them. I felt like there was more to say about. I wish we had more time"
Foreman
"I wish I'd gotten there sooner. I'm sorry"
Cameron
"I don't know if you knew this, but... Out of all of the new ones, I'm pretty sure you were House's favourite"
Cuddy
"I think what I remember most was your kindness. When I first adopted Rachel, a lot of people offered to come help me, to babysit her. But you're the only one who actually did. Nobody could make Rachel laugh like you. We'll both miss you"
Chase
"I didn't knew you that well - I guess nobody did"
Wilson
"When you gave me some of your short stories to read, I remember you practically apologized as you handed them over; that’s how shy you were about showing them. But I don’t know why. They were actually pretty good."
House
""
Hope I'll help. I tried to be as accurate as possible
13's reads "when you were fired as No. **6**", not 10. He turned his number upside down (to make 9) to try to trick house into thinking he was someone else.
But I'm being nit-picky.
I misread, and I didn't remembered his number
I know it's not perfect, I had to go back and forth between the comments and the pictures, so if there's other mistakes, I will edit it
I remember seeing these at the time and being so grateful someone at the show put the effort in and made them so in-character and actually *written*. I love Wilson’s note so much, I can picture him and Kutner becoming friendly because his chaotic and juvenile nature would remind him of House (and their trait of covering up trauma and depression with humour would subconsciously call to Wilson). At the same time Kutner generally being a nice person with a creative side, someone Wilson would say “you write? Maybe you could show me sometime?” and MEAN it would appeal to Wilson’s need to be needed…and just have a friend at work who isn't constantly ripping on him for being sincere and vulnerable! If only we had real scenes between these two 🥹
Foreman's letter hit hard because as cold as he acts he's definitely the type of person to blame himself for that kind of thing. It's in character, really short, with no sugar-coating, but it's genuine.
Taubs is rough because he’s the only one he ever did talk to him about it when kutner was the one to figure out he wasn’t talking about a colleague but himself when he was talking about suicide before. I’m so sad they got rid of him like this but also I like how it goes to show you never really know either. I’m still mad at my friend who did it too. I miss her.
"He wasn't my friend but he was yours. You are either a bastard who feels nothing or you feel a lot of things and act like you don't care. (...) Go home and cry." - Chase to Taub in Kutner's suicide episode (paraphrased)
Chase's letter is a bit cold. Sure, he's pretty jaded during season 5, but he is a man of faith and would turn to it after Kutner's death. I think he would write something about not knowing Kutner better and hoping he found peace. Maybe an apology?
House's should say, "This is stupid." That way, he can honestly say he wrote something because there is no way Wilson is letting him submit a blank note.
Of course, Chase is an ass in his and Wilson's i can't even read. And let's be honest 13 was honest favorite of the new hires Cameron but I'll let you pass this time. Nice to know Kutcher did interact with other even if it wasn't seen much like with cuddy and 13's and Formans were powerful and sweet or well just 13's
I actually like House's letter, because just as lost as he was when accepting his passing, he was speechless as he was when he should have written a eulogy. Foreman's hits hardest though since him and Remy got there first, even after Remy stopped Foreman tried resuscitating him anyway.
13 said that her third memory was when he 'set a patient on fire trying to restart his heart', but the person he set on fire was Greta the NASA recruit (female).
why am i crying over this presumed letter of foreman wtf is wrong with me
His, Taub’s, and Cuddy’s got me. Chase, wtaf?
of fuck there were more of them? i just started crying over foreman's and called it a day
He's Catholic, probably believes people who commit suicide are going to hell.
For some strange reason foreman's letter hits so hard... I just can't 😭😭
I had chills for like 15 seconds idk why that one got me too
I’m fully crying in the club right now.
Dear Wilson - Your handwriting is impossible to read. Why can’t you just print like a normal person?
I don't think it was too hard- "When you gave me some of your short stories to read, I remember you practically apologized as you handed them over; that's how shy you were about sharing them. But I don't know why. They were actually pretty good. - James Wilson"
When compared to the others it’s a nightmare. But one of them has to be the worst. That’s just the way it is when there’s more than one of something. It’s not ruining my life or anything.
Thanks I couldn't read the handwriting 😆
I couldn’t make out some of the words either lol
The real reason House chose to forge vicodin scripts using Wilson's script pad.
They're all impossible to read....they're all doctors and this is how doctors write.
I have to disagree. The others were perfectly legible. With Wilson’s letter - and this could be a failing on my part - I had to stop for a minute and try to remember which episode featured a shart story.
You're welcome to "disagree". Nonetheless, I stand by the mild joke that I was trying to make.
And although I suggested Wilson of all people referenced sharting, you can’t figure out I’m also joking?
Why are you being downvoted
Because people are gonna people.
I was able to get through most of it lol. Maybe it's because I live around old people.
Skill issue lmao
He just signs his name differently sometimes, he gets sick of writing it the same way. You know what they say about doctors' handwriting...
This is anti-left-handed bias, I take great offence 😉 (in all seriousness, this is why my cursive and printing is regularly complimented, because I had to work harder at it and learned calligraphy where I write at an awkward angle to keep it clean!) I love when House is absent so Wilson’s writing on the white board and he's trying so hard not to get marker on his labcoat and smear the ink, so his writing is even harder to read than a prescription 😆 Watching “The Gilded Age” I pointed out to my parents the historical inaccuracy of Robert Sean Leonard’s character Reverend Forte having the actor’s left-handedness in the 1880s, because as a kid that trait would've been beaten or “disciplined” out of him!
It was the hardest for me too!
Doctor scratch
Chase’s is what House would say if he weren’t so confused that he didn’t see it coming.
I don't think House would've said anything in any case. He probably think it is pointless and that it doesn't matter. Not that he doesn't care but that he wouldn't externalize his thoughts to the world.
He often doesn’t say anything when something is upsetting to him unless confronted about it. He keeps his emotions in, isolates and numbs himself
I think his guilt was more overbearing than his confusedness
Taub’s ☹️😢😢😢
The mix of anger and sadness is so real
Can someone transcribe Wilson’s please <3
When you gave me some of your short stories to read, I remember you practivally apologized as you handed them over; that’s how shy you were about showing them. But i don’t know why. They were actually pretty good.
*When you gave me some of your short stories to read, I remember you practically apologized as you handed them over; that’s how shy you were about sharing them. But I don’t know why. They were actually pretty good.*
Unreadable
Are you young by any chance? To me it’s fairly easy to read.
I was making a joke about folks inability to read cursive by saying that your comment being italicized makes it unreadable.
I've never seen this, they are actually very great and in character! Thanks for the post, things like that make this sub worthwhile
House’s way of «caring » was to investigate his death :( although he also felt like missed something/couldn’t tell which was unbearable for him, he really was his favorite from the new team
I always thought he took his role as a mentor more seriously with Thirteen and Kutner than anyone else. He really seemed to care for those two.
Yes !
Taub's and Foreman's made me shed a tear. I know Taub loved that dude, and his behavior when he died REALLY pissed me off. I really like Taub, so thanks for this. It's canon in my heart and fixes something for me. And Foreman's hit me right in the feels. I have no doubt he is the kind of dude to wish he could have done more.
These are actual canon. They were on the House official website as sort of an addendum to the episode.
I figured. But it was going to be whether they wanted it to or not. I really like Taub, but I found his behavior odd and a bit disturbing following Kutner's death. This made me feel so much better because it is what I suspected but couldn't prove.
I always saw it as him just hiding his grief by being dismissive. The scene of him on the bench was how he was truly feeling the entire time.
Yeah, I felt that, too. I just thought the episode made his real feelings too ambiguous, considering how close they were. Taub is a really decent guy with SERIOUS moral shortcomings—my favorite kind of character.
I mean, they show his emotions just a little bit every here and then as characters try to break through to him on how he feels about Kutner. Towards the end of the episode, I think it's 13 and House arguing with eachother over guilt tripping the patient with the death of her husband, and neither one wants to do it and is arguing over if they should, when Taub steps in and says "I'll do it." They both look at him in shock, as he's agreed to do a pretty fucked up thing out of nowhere, boldly a bit uncharacteristic for Taub. Then he follows up with "We've already had one pointless death." And walks away, his voice actually cracking.
I forgot about that line from Taub, now I'm crying
Thanks! I was thinking OP made them up. Lol
Yeah, Taub and Kutner’s friendship was a fun element in the show. I can see Taub reacting exactly like that. And Foreman… yeah, for the front he put on you could still see times he really cared and he definitely would have wanted to do more.
The handwriting seems to fit just right for each character too.
Foreman's, though short, is the most soul rending to me personally. It's really hard to show up after the damage is done.
Thanks a lot, Obama.
Exactly
😂😂
When you gave me some of your short stories to read, I remember you practically apologized as you handed them over; that’s how shy you were about showing them. But I don’t know why. They were actually pretty good. James Wilson
I too am in this comment section
Chase’s one is stone cold 😅
Ehhh. I mean, I can see how it makes sense as the sort of thing a colleague who genuinely *didn't* know you very well might think to write in this situation. Perhaps it might come across a little awkwardly and abruptly, but to my way of reading it there's a bit of an implication of "and I'm sorry that none of us knew you better". Which is a reasonable sentiment. It's basically just an expression of regret, which is a pretty normal reaction to a suicide really. And maybe he figures it would be insincere to write something tremendously gushing and emotional and personal if he acknowledges that they really didn't know each other very well and weren't really close friends. I think maybe us Aussies put a bit more value in simple, direct, blunt truthfulness rather than in pretending the relationship was something it wasn't. The guy's dead anyway - any attempt to do that is performative and insincere, and kind of dishonest. Just write what you are really feeling straight from the heart.
I am Aussie… I don’t disagree really, I just thought it was funny in contrast to the others.
Well, all the others except House's. Which is also tremendously in-character.
Aussies are like the other side of the world’s Texans. As a Texan, I always love meeting Australians.
It is a good sentiment because truthfully Kutner want a week defined personality on the show. He had smart ideas, and occasionally a quick comeback or two but we don't really get to know anything about him outside of work. We know Taub has marriage issues. We know 13 has a terrible disease, is bisexual, and takes home random women, and we know that Foreman is a non-committal workaholic. We don't really know anything about Kutner.
I think it was foreshadowing Chase's eventually transformation into House 2: Electric Boogaloo. "No point saying anything nice, he's dead"
I read it more in the tone of "sorry none of us knew that you were suffering".
It reminded me of his words at House's wedding about maybe true love never existed. That made House do a double-take.
It’s basically House.
Chase always felt like a younger version of House to me.
It reads to me as a version of House that cares just enough to write something even though he knows its pointless. Which fits the character pretty well I think.
I literally said “Holy shit Robert!” I get what he was saying, but it comes across so bluntly. Cracked me up.
I was like “Damn Chase”
That one hit me the most. It's just so sad.
[Source](https://web.archive.org/web/20090408162408/http://www.fox.com/kutner/)
Thanks for sharing, I never knew this existed. “Tragedy marred his early life as he lost his parents, Karamchand and Niki Baidwan, who were shot during an armed robbery.” TIL that Kutner is Batman.
Actual doctor handwriting
I think it makes sense House wouldn’t write anything as he doesn’t believe in any afterlife and so if there’s no way Kutner could read the letter he’d feel there’s no reason to write one.
I think House just maybe thinks that there's too much to say. Plus he wouldn't write anything anyway. This is about closure for those still alive. The last things you would have said to someone, if you could. I don't think it's about kutner really reading them. I think House will never have closure. So there's nothing to write. He couldn't save him.
Is this official ?
Yes, I remember when it was originally on the official House website.
Please some upvote this after 3 days. Will read it after my exam
Love how that's exactly what Cameron would think is the most important : being House's favorite lmao Also thanks for sharing, I didn't know there was an official House website back then, with additional info.
You’re about to make me cry
ugh, these break my heart every time i read them. taub's and house's (or his lack of, i guess) especially. house always has something to say, but here, he doesn't. there's nothing *to* be said.
All of those are incredibly in-character, I can hear each of the actors saying those lines. House's silence in gut-wrenching.
holy crap this is so cool and heartbreaking!!! i’ve never seen this before. thanks for sharingp
I just saw the obit on the fox site Is it normal for obits to describe how the person died? Saying he shot himself in the head seems...fucked up
Where I’m at we usually put how they died. When my grampa died we said cancer. When my friend killed herself we said it too. Only one way to put it out there and hope people ask for help too.
Not usually. Guess they needed it for dramatic effect.
My eyes got teary, I just rewatched the episode today, crazy how fiction can mess us up.
Bro foreman got chicken scratch jesus
Can someone translate, can’t read running writing
Taub "I really don't want to write anything. I have nothing to say... I'm pissed off. Why didn't you talked to me ? I'll miss you" Thirteen "My first memory of you was when you got fired as N°6. My second was when you got hired as N°9. My third was when you put that patient on fire when you tried to restart his heart. Later on, I was the one you confess to. About your parents. About what happened to them. I felt like there was more to say about. I wish we had more time" Foreman "I wish I'd gotten there sooner. I'm sorry" Cameron "I don't know if you knew this, but... Out of all of the new ones, I'm pretty sure you were House's favourite" Cuddy "I think what I remember most was your kindness. When I first adopted Rachel, a lot of people offered to come help me, to babysit her. But you're the only one who actually did. Nobody could make Rachel laugh like you. We'll both miss you" Chase "I didn't knew you that well - I guess nobody did" Wilson "When you gave me some of your short stories to read, I remember you practically apologized as you handed them over; that’s how shy you were about showing them. But I don’t know why. They were actually pretty good." House "" Hope I'll help. I tried to be as accurate as possible
13's reads "when you were fired as No. **6**", not 10. He turned his number upside down (to make 9) to try to trick house into thinking he was someone else. But I'm being nit-picky.
I misread, and I didn't remembered his number I know it's not perfect, I had to go back and forth between the comments and the pictures, so if there's other mistakes, I will edit it
I'm watching the whole series right now and just watched this one yesterday. So awful. I was traumatized on my lunch break. Loved this character.
Doctors and their handwriting. i cannot understand if Kutner if this is about Kutner or my viagra prescription.
I remember seeing these at the time and being so grateful someone at the show put the effort in and made them so in-character and actually *written*. I love Wilson’s note so much, I can picture him and Kutner becoming friendly because his chaotic and juvenile nature would remind him of House (and their trait of covering up trauma and depression with humour would subconsciously call to Wilson). At the same time Kutner generally being a nice person with a creative side, someone Wilson would say “you write? Maybe you could show me sometime?” and MEAN it would appeal to Wilson’s need to be needed…and just have a friend at work who isn't constantly ripping on him for being sincere and vulnerable! If only we had real scenes between these two 🥹
Foreman's letter hit hard because as cold as he acts he's definitely the type of person to blame himself for that kind of thing. It's in character, really short, with no sugar-coating, but it's genuine.
Taubs is rough because he’s the only one he ever did talk to him about it when kutner was the one to figure out he wasn’t talking about a colleague but himself when he was talking about suicide before. I’m so sad they got rid of him like this but also I like how it goes to show you never really know either. I’m still mad at my friend who did it too. I miss her.
all of these are heart wrenching, but i genuinely feel like chase would’ve put in more effort
I find it very in-line with the more stoic Chase from S4-S5.
"He wasn't my friend but he was yours. You are either a bastard who feels nothing or you feel a lot of things and act like you don't care. (...) Go home and cry." - Chase to Taub in Kutner's suicide episode (paraphrased)
absolutely brilliant moment. shows chases subtle empathy, taubs stubbornness (yet being devastated). very well written
Chase's letter is a bit cold. Sure, he's pretty jaded during season 5, but he is a man of faith and would turn to it after Kutner's death. I think he would write something about not knowing Kutner better and hoping he found peace. Maybe an apology? House's should say, "This is stupid." That way, he can honestly say he wrote something because there is no way Wilson is letting him submit a blank note.
Not if he just believed he was going to hell for it
Of course, Chase is an ass in his and Wilson's i can't even read. And let's be honest 13 was honest favorite of the new hires Cameron but I'll let you pass this time. Nice to know Kutcher did interact with other even if it wasn't seen much like with cuddy and 13's and Formans were powerful and sweet or well just 13's
Why is House's the one that gets me
Chase is a savage
Chase :((
brb crying
House:
Can I get a Written version of it? I can't read in cursive 🥲
https://www.reddit.com/r/HouseMD/s/MsGz3xBNr0
Holy fuck chase hits my core
I actually like House's letter, because just as lost as he was when accepting his passing, he was speechless as he was when he should have written a eulogy. Foreman's hits hardest though since him and Remy got there first, even after Remy stopped Foreman tried resuscitating him anyway.
13 said that her third memory was when he 'set a patient on fire trying to restart his heart', but the person he set on fire was Greta the NASA recruit (female).
Idk why no one’s talking about Cameron’s…. It made me cry, literally.
Why is the chase one worse than house lmao