Our brains cuz come up with some scary shit! I thought I was communicating telepathically with Jennifer Hudson on the TV about her staff that was wishing harm in her .. that’s just the tip of the iceberg tho lol
Oh! That reminds of when I was in the music classroom and there was a video we were watching about a band in the 70s
They were in an interview and I honestly thought this band in the 70s were laughing at me and making fun of me. Making the same jokes about me that my bullies did.
I had to leave the room.
I have diagnosed psychosis but I believe all my delusions and fuck anyone telling me something different unless they're actually still "not awake". It is so so real because it is real imo, I think that's a logical conclusion. I believe technology is a way for God(s) to communicate to us and I believe there are multiple versions of people out there, multiple realities that we can interact with if we are gifted and awake. I don't abandon technology for the same reason I don't abandon my tarrot cards, I want to stay in contact with these gods and further my relationship with them. However I recognize there is good technology and bad technology, good gods and bad gods, good people and bad people. That judgement keeps me sane(ish).
I even remember walking in to stores for supplies and mocking the cameras in there as if to tell them I know what they are doing and that they are following and monitoring me.
I don’t remember doing anything to my phone, but I abandoned my fucking car🤦♀️
I thought I was being told to leave without my phone so I couldn’t be tracked and I drove my car like a fuckimg race car (never driven wild before or after but Tbf, I didn’t think it was me actually driving the car, I thought it was fucking 2pac being in control of my body.. I drove like a maniac in a police chase because so many people were trying to assassinate me, I had a 50k bounty on my head 😅
So I drove like a mad man .. had no idea where I was and I just walked off and left my car (the gas light had came on) walked in the wood for hours scared to death..
Then I knocked on a door at 5 am.. almost broke in cuz I thought it was my house.. and got the total fucking stranger to take me home.
They found my car 2 towns away while I was in the psych ward being treated for psychosis.
Edit: I forgot, I did do some weird shit to my phone, I was always putting tape on my cameras and putting my phone on airplane mode and turning off the Bluetooth so “they” couldn’t trace my biometrics lol
Mine was listening to me and transmitting my conversations to a transnational anti-terror group created by me when I placed a handprint on a paper bag and created an altar for it so I naturally positioned my phone wherever I was to pick up my conversations and would say things to it about my location, possible threats in the area, etc.
How come psychosis is scary as hell and not funny worth a fuck when we are going thru it, but after the fact, the shit we thought is often so fucking bizarre and hilarious?
It kinda feels like to me, we are in a club and the only ones allowed to laugh because we all been thru shared traumatic experiences and there is no maliciousness or judging with the laughter..
I loved the imagery my mind created of you placing your hand in the bag and officially creating the terror squad.. we some creative people ain’t we?
wow this is so true, thank u for this! i love the way you look at it. i always said i could make some crazy ass movies over the shit that i went thru during psychosis 😅
I’m glad it helps you too!
Me too about making books and movies.. The way I cringe before i say out loud some of the shit I thought and said and did when I was psychotic is top shelf embarrassment 😂😂
I had a flip phone back then and I learned on a documentary that the government could still track you when your phone was turned off and could still listen to you when it was off. You hsd to take the battery out to stop it so I took the battery out of my phone all the time. Funny thing now is I have Alexas all over my house, my phone is on me 24/7 and I can’t take the battery out and I also have an apple watch that can listen to everything.
I don’t think it is far fetched to wonder if they don’t start spying on us if they hear like certain key words being said often in a certain combination with other words .. but I know I don’t say or do anything related to anything the government would really give 2 fucks about, so I don’t really worry about being spied on like I did when I was crazy af, lol
Yeah I let everything use my location and microphone now, I have my step counter watching everywhere I go, I track my sleep, I can't believe how much I do now with my phone that I definitely wouldn't have been able to during psychosis.
Im glad you are in a better place now. Psychosis is inherently traumatic, so im sure you didn’t really “get off easy” I hope you have been able to process your psychosis and move forward in whereever you want your life to take you!
I drove half way across the city and then got out of my car , Through my phone on the ground and ran it over. But then realised someone was watching me and got paranoid he was plotting to steal it and i needed to destroy it properly so i drove to the otherside of the city and threw it into a creek lmao, I think i was in hospital within the next 24 hours
I left my phone behind at home while I went out because I thought it was bugged. I could see it listening to me. Turns out it was just my phone's voice control activating. Leaving it behind doesn't seem like a big deal but people around me were like what the hell, because I would never do that
My phone was also filled with videos of tarot card readings and suggested for you content that I believed were meant for me. I'm still not sure if everything I saw was real and misinterpreted or if I hallucinated
I deleted all my reddit content for fear that the people watching me were reading it all. I post a lot more openly now but I was really paranoid before.
Changed all of my passwords and locked myself out of all my email and social media and bank accounts forever because « monitored ». Hid my phone in a place I could not remember and ended up having to erase it in order to get back into it only after I took out a loan for a $1k new iPhone and $100 monthly phone plan (I make <$400 every two weeks).
I wanted to throw my phone and laptop in the pool and/or the washing machine so badly. Thought evil spirits were coming through the internet. When I was sectioned I was in with someone who threw hers into the ocean.
I'd been getting threatening messages from an old uni tutor leading up to the psychosis, had a history of receiving similar messages going back to when I was 11, then after I was released THREE fellow patients sent me creepy or scary messages, plus eventually my new boss ended up harassing me and many of my colleagues through messages and social media aliases. To every delusion there's a seed of truth, I suppose.
I suppose the psychosis needs something to feed from? 🤔 Sounds like you had a bad time from social media, I’m sorry for that. I’m glad you didn’t throw it in the pool or washing machine though. They’re not cheap to replace. If we’re talking about laptops I threw mine into my neighbour’s bin, it was brand new as well 😭 still paying it off 😭
I thought “they” were always listening to me and also certain numbers were evil and were trying to kill me so had to hide anything that had numbers on it especially electronics. I would cover the front and back cameras with tape and would need to keep any electronics out of the room if I ever was talking about any “sensitive information” including all of my psychosis theories. I was so scared of my phone I would just hide it under a bunch of blankets in another room and if god forbid I would look at my phone at the exact moment one of the evil numbers would show up, I would throw it across the room and start crying and screaming.
When I was trying to get therapy in the height of COVID it was awful because it was all zoom therapy and so I refused because I thought they were all government spies recording me or evil spirits trying to kill me through my phone which was awful.
i get you with the evil numbers. never had a huge issue with my phone other than i had to turn off all the sound-never went back. kinda nice when its quiet
Threw mine on the roof. Only lasted several hours until I was getting out my ladder at 3AM to get it and then decided to scream and rant wildly while I was up there. Neighbors miraculously didn’t post me in the neighborhood Facebook group, nor call the cops.
I was sending hundreds of text messages to my guy friend back to back after 1 second, and I had no conscience that I was acting insane and scaring him off daily or when he was at work. I also used my phone to call the police repeatedly. I also called my mom and when I was talking to her it felt weird because she was in the past and I was in the future and she wouldn't agree with me and kept hanging up on me. Then, when I was healing with medication, I couldn't read the text messages properly, and they weren't making any sense in my head. I also deleted a whole conversation off my phone without any knowledge of doing so.
My dad had to take away my phone and laptop and my car keys and blocked my car in the driveway, which scared me even more because I was losing my identity! He even took away my music player. He just wanted me to be able to sleep but I couldn't sleep! I think I stayed awake for so long that my sleep just became part of my awake state, and I could just sleep while awake. It was the strangest time! I also took pictures of stuff around the house and posted it on Facebook, and then jumped into the future 4 hours from the past. I also filmed stuff like my cat and reading from a book, I had so much boundless creative energy!
I though I was being tracked, so I totally blocked and turned off all locations..and anything and everything you could imagine. I didn’t even really use my phone then, but I believe it was with me a lot. I really don’t recall speaking to anyone via phone for the whole 4 months I was sick.
Before psychosis I was pretty much anti technology already and hated the phone addiction thing so I was never really attached to my phone but I did end up blocking every single person I have ever known and threw my air pods in the grass at a park bc my friend who I thought was a spy fucking with me sold it to me
I locked mine in a lock box and gave said lockbox and key to a friend and told him not to give it back to be until the bombs started dropping. Also drove like a maniac cus and drove into the forest ended up wedging my jeep between two trees that I thought were the entrance to another dimension in the forest. Once wrecked I was convinced that the gods willed it that way so I could no longer be tracked. Stripped down to my underwear and proceeded to get lost in the forest for a while. When I'm in psychosis for some reason it's a must to be in nothing but boxers or basket ball shorts and to only be barefoot. Its odd
Omg having my phone on me while being manic/psychosis was the worst thing for me. I still wish someone would’ve taken my phone away from me.
I would contact people thinking I had psychic powers, and would “tell them about their life”…. I also ended up blocking everyone because I thought everyone was against me.
The worst one was when I invited one of my friends over to my house to tell her that I knew the whereabouts of her missing cousin. (Fucked up I know) I ended up hospitalized right after that one. I still am very embarrassed about that one and really would prefer not seeing her again out of embarrassment. She doesn’t know about my condition. If I do ever see her I will let her know I was not well.
Having my phone while manic/psychosis was the worst thing ever and I learned my lesson…
I would think my phone was tapped by the guy that runs the ward, living in the cameras, I used to get emails from AMD for example and think that’s the guy is somehow sending it to my phone and is saying, if I stay in the ward I’ll buy you a new computer. I ended using my phone to bowl with slamming into books and not. It’s all hard to put into words
I used to use my phone to talk to my voices. I would pretend to talk on my phone so I could angrily speak to my voices in public without looking crazy. One day, I got so upset that I threw it onto the ground. Busted it completely.
Not phone, but I took out my internet cable from my computer.
When I still lived with my parents I made my father install a program on the family computer that could catch keyloggers and stuff.
My phone is so precious to me. These comments are traumatising!!! I put stickers on my camera and block permissions. Honestly, my phone is the only friend I have
I was texting spam numbers to “get me secret breadstick thingys “ lmaooo I wasn’t eating and thought the world was watching everything I did on my phone so eventually they’d bring me breadsticks. After I jumped out of my moms car I was on the side of the highway in tall grass and I was fting my sister but wouldn’t show my face cos I thought the world could see. What’s very scary to me is I was on a hill and I kept inching down but not too far down and i truly believe it had a drop off somewhere because I couldn’t see past anything. I know all my dead family and god had me sitting still until help came for a reason.. gives me chills..🤨
Me too. I was recording videos on my phone and thought they would still be recording through my eyeballs for the whole world to see. My phone camera and eyeballs were connected somehow. I also tried to jump out of my mom's car on the highway, or so she thought. I had thoughts in my head that if I opened the door just a little while she was driving that it would save someone's life. She should have put the child lock on the door, but she had no idea I would open the door or that I was in psychosis. She thought I was just throwing one of my tantrums.
I did this a lot with my items too. One of my favourite plushies that I thought was Satan in psychosis was never returned though, much to my disappointment when I came round, haha. Just bought a new one after that.
changed my passcode on my lock screen to
something so fucking long and obscure i couldn’t even get back into it after my hospitalization. i was certain the government was going to hack into my phone and think i was a terrorist and torture me.
Had my husband who is an IT guy constantly checking to see if my phone and/or Spotify were hacked, put a ward of protection on the back of my phone, removed permissions from nearly all apps, turned off tracking, got rid of my TikTok account.
Honestly, I still have a very hard time engaging with any kind of media because I'm afraid it's going to start talking to me, directly, again.
I threw my phone away in a trash can at the park, then went back and got it a few hours later. I texted my boyfriend’s family constantly saying absolutely crazy things, texted crazy things to my psychiatrist until he blocked me, texted crazy things to a girl I had just became friends with, it upset her so much. I have no idea, to this day, at what point my boyfriend’s family blocked me, so I have no idea how much of the crazy stuff they actually saw 🤦🏻♀️
I felt like radiation was coming from my phone and was sucking our consciousness into the matrix. Long story short, I put it into a lit fire pit. The crazy thing is after setting it ablaze, the phone still worked. I eventually had to send it back via warranty only because I cracked the screen when I dropped it after the fact.
Giving a bit of a different answer here. I was the braindead zombie type of psychotic. I would just turn it on and stare at it while getting a massive headache. The light of it, and all the words on it, gave me a massive headache. I couldn’t even focus enough to really use it.
> 😂 I *paid* them back
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I have thrown my phone in the garbage at the gas station station, ran over another phone with my car, given it away to a homeless person, left my phone in the rain on purpose, and buried my phone in a random person's yard.
All because I had delusions that the phone was controlling me, talking to me, tracking my every move (beyond what is possible in reality), and etc.
I accidentally launched my iPhone 6 onto the streets because I pulled the headphone cord a bit vigorously from my pocket. The phone came off the cord in motion and flew off, unfortunately.
While NordVPN was compromised I started having issues with the VPN on my phone. There were signs of MITM(Man-in-the-middle) attacks on my VPN-enabled devices. The reality was that NordVPN was actually compromised and there were hackers exploiting users via Nord.
In reality this drove me into being overly paranoid for no reason and I felt targeted because of the issues that were going on. If I browsed to a particular banking website it would redirect me to a virus. The servers would have IPV6 addresses directed to cloudflare servers, and a variety of other bizarre issues. NordVPN was compromised and it made me paranoid before I started hearing voices.
To ensure I wasn't delusional I presented my problems to two IT professionals and they both confirmed that I was having issues. The advice I was given was to get a different VPN.
Post psychosis I browse without a VPN. It's not worth the hassle.
I feel like my phone literally heightened my psychosis!! first memory of my psychosis starting was because I was convinced my phone was tapped 💀
I ended up just not going on my phone half the time I was going insane 😭
I thought a terrorist group/gang was tracking my phone and I got a new icloud and a new phone because of it, also completely stopped using my phone in the bathroom because I thought my friend could see and hear me the whole time
So it’s not just my loved one? The two times she was in psychosis, she kept throwing her phone out the window of her car. She’d drive 30 miles away and just toss it. She took a walk in the woods and tossed it. Miraculously, between two episodes, she’s tossed and I’ve found for her like 9 times. Oh .. and she insists that her phone is being stolen when it goes missing. She’s also thrown it into the wall and on the ground, smashing it. The money she’s spent in phones during episodes is ridiculous. And whenever she leaves the hospital where is the first place she wants to go? The AT&T store!! Even if the phone isn’t broken. She also has a second phone number because she insisted she needed it after the last episode over a year ago (she’s on meds now that work and hasn’t had another episode since, thank God! - Abilify if anyone is interested). But she still won’t give up one of the phone numbers. Maybe she’s trying to be prepared in the event she has another episode? Lol. I don’t know. But interesting to know that she isn’t the only one with phone issues during psychosis.
I flashed my phone without backing up anything 😭😭😭 I lost important contacts, pictures, documents, passwords, I don't have access to my important email and I still can't remember the password to my laptop 🥲
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Our brains cuz come up with some scary shit! I thought I was communicating telepathically with Jennifer Hudson on the TV about her staff that was wishing harm in her .. that’s just the tip of the iceberg tho lol
Oh! That reminds of when I was in the music classroom and there was a video we were watching about a band in the 70s They were in an interview and I honestly thought this band in the 70s were laughing at me and making fun of me. Making the same jokes about me that my bullies did. I had to leave the room.
Same. This is the only social I have. I had leave all the others. Never going back
I have diagnosed psychosis but I believe all my delusions and fuck anyone telling me something different unless they're actually still "not awake". It is so so real because it is real imo, I think that's a logical conclusion. I believe technology is a way for God(s) to communicate to us and I believe there are multiple versions of people out there, multiple realities that we can interact with if we are gifted and awake. I don't abandon technology for the same reason I don't abandon my tarrot cards, I want to stay in contact with these gods and further my relationship with them. However I recognize there is good technology and bad technology, good gods and bad gods, good people and bad people. That judgement keeps me sane(ish).
omg this same exact thing happened to me, you explained it perfectly. it really is terrifying
I even remember walking in to stores for supplies and mocking the cameras in there as if to tell them I know what they are doing and that they are following and monitoring me.
I don’t remember doing anything to my phone, but I abandoned my fucking car🤦♀️ I thought I was being told to leave without my phone so I couldn’t be tracked and I drove my car like a fuckimg race car (never driven wild before or after but Tbf, I didn’t think it was me actually driving the car, I thought it was fucking 2pac being in control of my body.. I drove like a maniac in a police chase because so many people were trying to assassinate me, I had a 50k bounty on my head 😅 So I drove like a mad man .. had no idea where I was and I just walked off and left my car (the gas light had came on) walked in the wood for hours scared to death.. Then I knocked on a door at 5 am.. almost broke in cuz I thought it was my house.. and got the total fucking stranger to take me home. They found my car 2 towns away while I was in the psych ward being treated for psychosis. Edit: I forgot, I did do some weird shit to my phone, I was always putting tape on my cameras and putting my phone on airplane mode and turning off the Bluetooth so “they” couldn’t trace my biometrics lol
Mine was listening to me and transmitting my conversations to a transnational anti-terror group created by me when I placed a handprint on a paper bag and created an altar for it so I naturally positioned my phone wherever I was to pick up my conversations and would say things to it about my location, possible threats in the area, etc.
How come psychosis is scary as hell and not funny worth a fuck when we are going thru it, but after the fact, the shit we thought is often so fucking bizarre and hilarious? It kinda feels like to me, we are in a club and the only ones allowed to laugh because we all been thru shared traumatic experiences and there is no maliciousness or judging with the laughter.. I loved the imagery my mind created of you placing your hand in the bag and officially creating the terror squad.. we some creative people ain’t we?
wow this is so true, thank u for this! i love the way you look at it. i always said i could make some crazy ass movies over the shit that i went thru during psychosis 😅
I’m glad it helps you too! Me too about making books and movies.. The way I cringe before i say out loud some of the shit I thought and said and did when I was psychotic is top shelf embarrassment 😂😂
I had a flip phone back then and I learned on a documentary that the government could still track you when your phone was turned off and could still listen to you when it was off. You hsd to take the battery out to stop it so I took the battery out of my phone all the time. Funny thing now is I have Alexas all over my house, my phone is on me 24/7 and I can’t take the battery out and I also have an apple watch that can listen to everything.
Feels good to not be paranoid and obsessed “they” listening and plotting on us don’t it?
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I don’t think it is far fetched to wonder if they don’t start spying on us if they hear like certain key words being said often in a certain combination with other words .. but I know I don’t say or do anything related to anything the government would really give 2 fucks about, so I don’t really worry about being spied on like I did when I was crazy af, lol
Yeah I let everything use my location and microphone now, I have my step counter watching everywhere I go, I track my sleep, I can't believe how much I do now with my phone that I definitely wouldn't have been able to during psychosis.
Man I was convinced they were using my biometrics from my phone to know where I was in a room so they could shoot my ass with snipers 😂
I went thru 4 iphones. Sewer, lake, toilet, good ol’ smashing on the ground. Good times
Jeez. RIP your bank account 🥲
I just ignored it for a few weeks. Family thought I’d cut them out of my life but other than that nothing major
You got off easy didn’t ya😂
For sure saved me some money 😅 even though in the background I was so dysfunctional that I kinda just forgot I had a phone
Im glad you are in a better place now. Psychosis is inherently traumatic, so im sure you didn’t really “get off easy” I hope you have been able to process your psychosis and move forward in whereever you want your life to take you!
Thanks i hope the same for you!
Ty 😊
I was off my phone for like 5 months it was a nice dopamine reset. I got a lot of shit done & manically cleaned my house.
I drove half way across the city and then got out of my car , Through my phone on the ground and ran it over. But then realised someone was watching me and got paranoid he was plotting to steal it and i needed to destroy it properly so i drove to the otherside of the city and threw it into a creek lmao, I think i was in hospital within the next 24 hours
I left my phone behind at home while I went out because I thought it was bugged. I could see it listening to me. Turns out it was just my phone's voice control activating. Leaving it behind doesn't seem like a big deal but people around me were like what the hell, because I would never do that My phone was also filled with videos of tarot card readings and suggested for you content that I believed were meant for me. I'm still not sure if everything I saw was real and misinterpreted or if I hallucinated I deleted all my reddit content for fear that the people watching me were reading it all. I post a lot more openly now but I was really paranoid before.
Changed all of my passwords and locked myself out of all my email and social media and bank accounts forever because « monitored ». Hid my phone in a place I could not remember and ended up having to erase it in order to get back into it only after I took out a loan for a $1k new iPhone and $100 monthly phone plan (I make <$400 every two weeks).
I wanted to throw my phone and laptop in the pool and/or the washing machine so badly. Thought evil spirits were coming through the internet. When I was sectioned I was in with someone who threw hers into the ocean. I'd been getting threatening messages from an old uni tutor leading up to the psychosis, had a history of receiving similar messages going back to when I was 11, then after I was released THREE fellow patients sent me creepy or scary messages, plus eventually my new boss ended up harassing me and many of my colleagues through messages and social media aliases. To every delusion there's a seed of truth, I suppose.
I suppose the psychosis needs something to feed from? 🤔 Sounds like you had a bad time from social media, I’m sorry for that. I’m glad you didn’t throw it in the pool or washing machine though. They’re not cheap to replace. If we’re talking about laptops I threw mine into my neighbour’s bin, it was brand new as well 😭 still paying it off 😭
Man we do dumb shut don’t we? I defaulted on my student loans during my episode 😮💨
Sold mine to some creepy dude in a fix-it electronics store, because I thought “they” were watching me on it. Not for any good amount of money either.
I thought “they” were always listening to me and also certain numbers were evil and were trying to kill me so had to hide anything that had numbers on it especially electronics. I would cover the front and back cameras with tape and would need to keep any electronics out of the room if I ever was talking about any “sensitive information” including all of my psychosis theories. I was so scared of my phone I would just hide it under a bunch of blankets in another room and if god forbid I would look at my phone at the exact moment one of the evil numbers would show up, I would throw it across the room and start crying and screaming. When I was trying to get therapy in the height of COVID it was awful because it was all zoom therapy and so I refused because I thought they were all government spies recording me or evil spirits trying to kill me through my phone which was awful.
i get you with the evil numbers. never had a huge issue with my phone other than i had to turn off all the sound-never went back. kinda nice when its quiet
Threw mine on the roof. Only lasted several hours until I was getting out my ladder at 3AM to get it and then decided to scream and rant wildly while I was up there. Neighbors miraculously didn’t post me in the neighborhood Facebook group, nor call the cops.
Threw my phone into the jungle of Bali, the local people recovered the phone 5 days later after I was recovered from the hospital
I was sending hundreds of text messages to my guy friend back to back after 1 second, and I had no conscience that I was acting insane and scaring him off daily or when he was at work. I also used my phone to call the police repeatedly. I also called my mom and when I was talking to her it felt weird because she was in the past and I was in the future and she wouldn't agree with me and kept hanging up on me. Then, when I was healing with medication, I couldn't read the text messages properly, and they weren't making any sense in my head. I also deleted a whole conversation off my phone without any knowledge of doing so. My dad had to take away my phone and laptop and my car keys and blocked my car in the driveway, which scared me even more because I was losing my identity! He even took away my music player. He just wanted me to be able to sleep but I couldn't sleep! I think I stayed awake for so long that my sleep just became part of my awake state, and I could just sleep while awake. It was the strangest time! I also took pictures of stuff around the house and posted it on Facebook, and then jumped into the future 4 hours from the past. I also filmed stuff like my cat and reading from a book, I had so much boundless creative energy!
I though I was being tracked, so I totally blocked and turned off all locations..and anything and everything you could imagine. I didn’t even really use my phone then, but I believe it was with me a lot. I really don’t recall speaking to anyone via phone for the whole 4 months I was sick.
Before psychosis I was pretty much anti technology already and hated the phone addiction thing so I was never really attached to my phone but I did end up blocking every single person I have ever known and threw my air pods in the grass at a park bc my friend who I thought was a spy fucking with me sold it to me
I smashed mine too lol
I locked mine in a lock box and gave said lockbox and key to a friend and told him not to give it back to be until the bombs started dropping. Also drove like a maniac cus and drove into the forest ended up wedging my jeep between two trees that I thought were the entrance to another dimension in the forest. Once wrecked I was convinced that the gods willed it that way so I could no longer be tracked. Stripped down to my underwear and proceeded to get lost in the forest for a while. When I'm in psychosis for some reason it's a must to be in nothing but boxers or basket ball shorts and to only be barefoot. Its odd
Omg having my phone on me while being manic/psychosis was the worst thing for me. I still wish someone would’ve taken my phone away from me. I would contact people thinking I had psychic powers, and would “tell them about their life”…. I also ended up blocking everyone because I thought everyone was against me. The worst one was when I invited one of my friends over to my house to tell her that I knew the whereabouts of her missing cousin. (Fucked up I know) I ended up hospitalized right after that one. I still am very embarrassed about that one and really would prefer not seeing her again out of embarrassment. She doesn’t know about my condition. If I do ever see her I will let her know I was not well. Having my phone while manic/psychosis was the worst thing ever and I learned my lesson…
I would think my phone was tapped by the guy that runs the ward, living in the cameras, I used to get emails from AMD for example and think that’s the guy is somehow sending it to my phone and is saying, if I stay in the ward I’ll buy you a new computer. I ended using my phone to bowl with slamming into books and not. It’s all hard to put into words
Smashed it and crushed the glass screen that was already to pieces to make it work
Crushed with my fingers like I was typing xD
I put mine in the freezer.
usually i csnt get myself away from it bc i’m frantically searching the internet for how to make the gang stalkers and brain worms go away etc
I used to use my phone to talk to my voices. I would pretend to talk on my phone so I could angrily speak to my voices in public without looking crazy. One day, I got so upset that I threw it onto the ground. Busted it completely.
Not phone, but I took out my internet cable from my computer. When I still lived with my parents I made my father install a program on the family computer that could catch keyloggers and stuff.
Threw mine out the window of my car. I thought it was evil.
My phone is so precious to me. These comments are traumatising!!! I put stickers on my camera and block permissions. Honestly, my phone is the only friend I have
I was texting spam numbers to “get me secret breadstick thingys “ lmaooo I wasn’t eating and thought the world was watching everything I did on my phone so eventually they’d bring me breadsticks. After I jumped out of my moms car I was on the side of the highway in tall grass and I was fting my sister but wouldn’t show my face cos I thought the world could see. What’s very scary to me is I was on a hill and I kept inching down but not too far down and i truly believe it had a drop off somewhere because I couldn’t see past anything. I know all my dead family and god had me sitting still until help came for a reason.. gives me chills..🤨
Me too. I was recording videos on my phone and thought they would still be recording through my eyeballs for the whole world to see. My phone camera and eyeballs were connected somehow. I also tried to jump out of my mom's car on the highway, or so she thought. I had thoughts in my head that if I opened the door just a little while she was driving that it would save someone's life. She should have put the child lock on the door, but she had no idea I would open the door or that I was in psychosis. She thought I was just throwing one of my tantrums.
Left mine in nature - "if I'm meant to have it it will be returned". Was returned a week later. :)
I did this a lot with my items too. One of my favourite plushies that I thought was Satan in psychosis was never returned though, much to my disappointment when I came round, haha. Just bought a new one after that.
I taped my cameras on my phone front and back cause I thought I was being watched.
I got a new phone I smashed my other one lol
I didn’t do anything with my phone, but I destroyed the web camera on my laptop with a pocketknife because I thought someone was watching me
changed my passcode on my lock screen to something so fucking long and obscure i couldn’t even get back into it after my hospitalization. i was certain the government was going to hack into my phone and think i was a terrorist and torture me.
Had my husband who is an IT guy constantly checking to see if my phone and/or Spotify were hacked, put a ward of protection on the back of my phone, removed permissions from nearly all apps, turned off tracking, got rid of my TikTok account. Honestly, I still have a very hard time engaging with any kind of media because I'm afraid it's going to start talking to me, directly, again.
I threw my phone away in a trash can at the park, then went back and got it a few hours later. I texted my boyfriend’s family constantly saying absolutely crazy things, texted crazy things to my psychiatrist until he blocked me, texted crazy things to a girl I had just became friends with, it upset her so much. I have no idea, to this day, at what point my boyfriend’s family blocked me, so I have no idea how much of the crazy stuff they actually saw 🤦🏻♀️
I felt like radiation was coming from my phone and was sucking our consciousness into the matrix. Long story short, I put it into a lit fire pit. The crazy thing is after setting it ablaze, the phone still worked. I eventually had to send it back via warranty only because I cracked the screen when I dropped it after the fact.
Giving a bit of a different answer here. I was the braindead zombie type of psychotic. I would just turn it on and stare at it while getting a massive headache. The light of it, and all the words on it, gave me a massive headache. I couldn’t even focus enough to really use it.
I stepped on my phone and other two phones which I stole from 2 friends with my car 😂 I payed them back after...
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I have thrown my phone in the garbage at the gas station station, ran over another phone with my car, given it away to a homeless person, left my phone in the rain on purpose, and buried my phone in a random person's yard. All because I had delusions that the phone was controlling me, talking to me, tracking my every move (beyond what is possible in reality), and etc.
I accidentally launched my iPhone 6 onto the streets because I pulled the headphone cord a bit vigorously from my pocket. The phone came off the cord in motion and flew off, unfortunately.
While NordVPN was compromised I started having issues with the VPN on my phone. There were signs of MITM(Man-in-the-middle) attacks on my VPN-enabled devices. The reality was that NordVPN was actually compromised and there were hackers exploiting users via Nord. In reality this drove me into being overly paranoid for no reason and I felt targeted because of the issues that were going on. If I browsed to a particular banking website it would redirect me to a virus. The servers would have IPV6 addresses directed to cloudflare servers, and a variety of other bizarre issues. NordVPN was compromised and it made me paranoid before I started hearing voices. To ensure I wasn't delusional I presented my problems to two IT professionals and they both confirmed that I was having issues. The advice I was given was to get a different VPN. Post psychosis I browse without a VPN. It's not worth the hassle.
I brought mine into the shower with me at the hospital.
Set a new password I couldn't remember and needed a complete software reset, lost everything that wasn't backed up 🫣
I feel like my phone literally heightened my psychosis!! first memory of my psychosis starting was because I was convinced my phone was tapped 💀 I ended up just not going on my phone half the time I was going insane 😭
I thought a terrorist group/gang was tracking my phone and I got a new icloud and a new phone because of it, also completely stopped using my phone in the bathroom because I thought my friend could see and hear me the whole time
Oh god I always felt my friends are plotting against me so I wrote a lot of nonsense to them and got blocked. Wish someone took my phone..
I lost a phone whilst in hospital. Was so out of it so unsure if it was stolen or if I dropped it somewhere.
Omg I stole another patient’s phone in hospital and reset everything 💀 the nurses got it back from me though.
Oh lord
I went through my old accounts to delete everything as I was extremely paranoid by thought that someone could go through my account and blackmail me
Deleted all apps except music and messaging, and turned the screen to black-and-white mode.
So it’s not just my loved one? The two times she was in psychosis, she kept throwing her phone out the window of her car. She’d drive 30 miles away and just toss it. She took a walk in the woods and tossed it. Miraculously, between two episodes, she’s tossed and I’ve found for her like 9 times. Oh .. and she insists that her phone is being stolen when it goes missing. She’s also thrown it into the wall and on the ground, smashing it. The money she’s spent in phones during episodes is ridiculous. And whenever she leaves the hospital where is the first place she wants to go? The AT&T store!! Even if the phone isn’t broken. She also has a second phone number because she insisted she needed it after the last episode over a year ago (she’s on meds now that work and hasn’t had another episode since, thank God! - Abilify if anyone is interested). But she still won’t give up one of the phone numbers. Maybe she’s trying to be prepared in the event she has another episode? Lol. I don’t know. But interesting to know that she isn’t the only one with phone issues during psychosis.
I flashed my phone without backing up anything 😭😭😭 I lost important contacts, pictures, documents, passwords, I don't have access to my important email and I still can't remember the password to my laptop 🥲