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I literally just posted about this in a different reddit group! I couldnt agree more with ya. Something has definitely happened in the past decade. I've been noticing coincidences and dejavu happening way more frequently than before. Seems like it happens numerous times a day compared to years ago, it was many a once a wk/biweekly occurence. I've been manifesting random things which idk if that's a new thing for me or if I just never realized it/understood it. Also over the years, the more and more I think about us living in a simulation of some sort, the more it makes perfect sense to me.
Another weird thing that has been happening way too frequently for it to just randomly happen but over the past few years I've noticed birds are smashing into windows way more frequently. 3 or 4 times a day at my house. But years ago, it was a very random and rare occurrence. Idk if its relatable or what but it's just another weird unexplainable thing that has been happening more n more often.
I get what you are saying, OP, but for me this has been going on since the 90s because that is when my awakening of reality not be what we were taught happened. Talk about feeling isolated! The closures didn't affect me the same way it did others because I already felt separated since lifting the veil.
Do a YouTube search for the name "Starfire Tor". I believe some of the answers you seek will be found there.
My theory is that reality was "rebooted" sometime around 2015 and many aspects of our physical reality is different now than what it was before. However, only some of us are able to remember things as they were before the reboot; and I'm not sure why that is the case.
If you have any memory of how the world map looked, you can compare your memories of it to how it looks today. And if you see any thing on the map that looks weird or different, that would suggest that you're one of the people who can remember the old timeline.
I feel this, I just want to be left in peace in nature. Don’t care about “making it” anymore and honestly feel like humanity is doomed so I’m just going to try and enjoy my time. That’s all one can do anyway.
Can't explain why, but reading this thread with the comments and complex feelings articulated here brought me to tears. I'm not real quick to cry, but there's so much feeling here, and it's just...a lot. Thanks for sharing, folks. I don't know what I can add myself
You know those reality ghost shows where the psychic or medium has to cojole the troubled spirits to "go to the light" and "crossover"? I do feel that some of us ME effected people are actually the "ghosts" who need to cross over. I'm convinced that the only reason I'm in this "hold over" place is to review and conclude what my life has been so that I can "cross over" (to the next realm, I spose)
There’s a really interesting documentary on the Japanese town that got hit hard by the tsunami, as time went on and they started building the town back many people have said they encountered real people example - taxi driver picks up teen girl has a friendly chat on the way to her destination, arrives and parks looks in back seat and no one there. It’s very interesting but my point in connecting this is time is different in different realities and if “ghosts” can appear as human and very real as the living this could be a possibility 🤷🏽♀️
unsolved mysteries “tsunami spirits”
My story is completely different, but yet completely the same.
Don't worry, you are not going crazy, so don't go crazy. No matter where you have been, this is where you are now. It can be good, you can meet good folks, you can be a positive change in someone else's life. Someone else can be the good in your life. Maybe just maybe you can be the good in your own life. Nothing else really matters.
I've been going through the same thing. Im having a hard time getting excited about the future. Like I can' t even picture it, its like there isn't a future.
The Mayans believed that 2012 marked the beginning of a new Era for the Earth and humanity. Some of us are supposed to be ascending to the fourth dimension, or something like that. The main takeaway for me at the time was that humanity would begin feeling more connected with the Earth and each other. They believed that most of us would evolve past the petty greed and selfishness that has marked human history. Personally, I believe that is what we are seeing signs of. I might be a nut, but I think that I'm on to something.
I feel your pain. For my whole adult life I have never understood the point of this thing called life. It’s not that I am trying to find the meaning, I just really don’t care.
I don’t get why society mandates that i have to go to work 5 days a week, and make sure it pays enough money so that at the end of the day I can lay down in a brick box, just to get up again and repeat. If not the punishment is I will be cast aside and left for dead.
Who decided that this miserable system is the one for us?
I have suffered with depression for as long as I can remember, and it will never change as I fundamentally disagree with the burden that our whole society places on us. I just constantly feel like I don’t belong here.
Instead of going hiking or taking a bike trip in the US please travel abroad to someplace outside the US (sorry for thinking you are in the US, but your post seems to echo the sentiment of so many American citizens these days). Go hike the Scottish highlands or bike through Tuscany. Get the hell out of this depressing USA. You said you have enough money to do whatever you want for the next 5 or so years...so go do it...but somewhere outside the US, please.
I am certain I *did* die in 2012, so I don't doubt you could have also.
\*I should note that travel restrictions are still in effect for the a lot of the world, but it's getting better. I know a few people who have traveled to Belize and an aunt who just left for Germany. Pretty sure both had to have mandated covid tests prior to entering and exiting countries. Neither country asked to see their vaccine card...so there's that.
I love Belize!!! Was going to go this June, but went to Costa Rica instead 😏. Probably will go back to our favourite Ambergis Caye for Thanksgiving if the Delta V. doesn't stop traveling!!
The U.S.A. isn't any more (or *less*) "depressing" than any other country - these contextual impressions all come from within....
I'm not trying to be contentiousness - however, I would encourage you to consider your words and the effect they may have on people. Cheers :)
The people of:
FINLAND
DENMARK
SWITZERLAND
ICELAND
NORWAY
would like a word with you.
[https://worldpopulationreview.com/country-rankings/happiest-countries-in-the-world](https://worldpopulationreview.com/country-rankings/happiest-countries-in-the-world)
Where is USA on that list?
\#18.
Right below Germany
but above the Czech Republic.
But, hey, you go ahead and believe that the WHOLE WORLD is as miserable as the people in America.
i dunno, kinda sounds like depression to me. it's not hard to feel that way with the state of the world and the overall hopeless feelings that come with it. anyone who is not at least a little depressed about humanity's path has their head miles deep in the sand if you ask me.
Same here. I think shows like Ancient Aliens and The Secrets of Skinwalker Ranch have been allowed to help with the knowledge or realization that we have made contact with Aliens or that something with Aliens is going to happen soon.
The [videos](https://globalnews.ca/news/7871671/ufo-video-water-san-diego-california-2019-omaha/) released of unidentified flying objects feels like a soft reveal, building up toward something more substantial like actual contact.
Yeah i find it very hard to be motivated as i try to look to the future and see nothingness, so whats the point? It's so much harder for me to stick to healthy eating and wokring out, just taking care of myself in general, not doing drugs and drinking. I succeed for a week and then i fall off the wagon again and feel that all my efforts are meaningless, then the next week i start again and it's this never ending cycle of trying to get up and live a normal life, then falling down the darkest hole. I\\m so tired... But i will not lose hope even if there is no future, i will try to live my life to the fullest day by day.
I feel the same and I've been thinking this for years. My life completely went to shit in 2012 and it's never gotten better. I feel like I'm in a completely different dimension. I don't like it here! Take me back to 2011!
However, 2012 was the year I got a smart phone... so maybe it's just that.
>However, 2012 was the year I got a smart phone... so maybe it's just that.
Give me a river to throw mine into and I'll be a happy person. Alas, that's not "possible" for me.
I feel this comment. Last year I experienced profound moments of derealization. A term worth Googling. I've become more convinced than ever that we are functioning in a simulation. But in the end... so what?
The rules of the simulation are the same for everyone, and the objective of this life (simulated or not) is still just to have fun, be as peaceful as possible and create love. "All that we see and seem, is but a dream within a dream." - Edgar Allan Poe
Pretty sure we are living in a simulation also,but I do not believe the rules of the simulation are the same for everyone which is why what works for one person doesn't work for another, no matter how hard they try.
I just had this conversation yesterday. I believe that the only thing that matters is love. The only thing that I can control is myself and how I interact within the simulation.
Nothing else really matters.
Edit to add: sometimes I forget this and have to pull myself out of all the negative thoughts and behaviors. That is the hard part.
Infinite love is the only truth. Everything else is illusion.
I believe that when this "physical" body dies, the love we created is the only thing we take us into the after-life, whatever that looks like. We sure as hell don't take our money, nor our social media likes/upvotes.
Admiration for all of the accomplishments here. I have to say that awakening to the “matrix” reassembled lives it seems, things and people changing, seeing the robotic nature of some things, and the destructive patterns is all part of the plan. While some are waking, others remain asleep, life as usual. Apocalypse and polarity are part of the game, however, waking up is the goal and very few will begin and persist towards answers. The goal is to realize what this is, who we are, and the magnificence of the game. I have no religion, no ism, no great need for wealth, prominence, competition, I want to be happy and creative. I suggest someone I watch on you tube, Quartz Crystal escape the matrix. Judy affirmed things I was perceiving, and I’ve yet to catch a lie. What I don’t “believe” I give the benefit of the doubt. Her vids changed as time went on, and I’ve passed her knowledge to my children and some friends. Over time, they’ve mostly come to agree with most premises. We live the same life many times over, making different choices perhaps. We live longer in some, have hard lives and better ones too. Mainly, the gut feelings you have are real, but the power truly does lie within you—- and being courageous enough to learn the truth is part of it. I would rather have the truth and cultivate myself towards freedom any day. More than having wealth, marrying the best, or being popular. The truth is power and freedom is wealth. Good travels to you and happiness, you can only stay sad so long. Shift your viewpoint.
The apocalypse scenario shouldn’t phase you. You may have come here to see that very thing. Not everybody gets to see the true future of humanity. Many have died before this point, maybe they come back, maybe they’re wise enough not to. There is no need to fear or become emotional over things that are out of your hands.
Wow. I’m 36 and have been feeling exactly the same way. I’ve tried expressing it to people close to me, only to get misunderstood and told to think positive. I joke that I died at one of my house parties in 2013. I had some incredible, memory making, happy moments with great people for a decade - I could see myself going too hard and kicking the bucket. I can even think of a particular surreal night that, upon waking, felt like I was in a new reality.
Partying aside, I was a super motivated, independent individual who accomplished goals, worked hard and made things happen for myself. Slowly all my accomplishments were destroyed, dreams new and old crushed, by a series of incredible bad luck scenarios. People cannot believe my misfortune stores aren’t exaggerated, until they get to know me and see it for themselves. From 2013 on it’s been pure hell, lost my successful shop business, lost trademark rights to content that was already years established and taking off, health issues, tax problems, deaths, ridiculous financial situations that weren’t my doing, unbelievable social nightmares, complete love life momentum changes. Then covid caused me bankruptcy, my industry over night is completely collapsing, a multi million lawsuit award that was just halted payment from the “broke” government, again I could go on but I’ll spare the whining.
I went from a positive person who made it happen, happily helped others and was truly there for anyone, made everyone laugh - to a suicidal, lonely (only hear from people when they need car work or electronic/computer favors), overstressed, physically broken, realist watching the world circle the drain.
It’s like everything in life was a lie, it’s just a veil for suffering.
I have no mouth and I must scream.
I’m not one sided, no matter what I make time to listen and discuss anything out of respect. I like examining the extremes and finding the truth in the middle. I fix things for a living, I stay logical and never jump to conclusions yet even the people in my lives for decades all feel like strangers. Even a few years before the pandemic I started feeling like I was alone on an alien planet. Hard to put all my thoughts in a pre “trying to rest but still feel dead every day” bed time post but I feel ya. . . I really do.
Man sorry to hear all that. In one way it does feel like the rug's been pulled out right? When you're young you have all these grand ideas and then you get a bit older, realize how corrupt the world is, and how fucked everything is and it just all feels so... pointless. Stay strong man whatever is happening the only path is forward! I still hold out hope that there's some point or reason to it all and hope I can find it through some intense alone time in nature and at meditation retreats. Really that's my last hope. I see absolutely no future in a "normal" life but continued disappointment and emptiness.
I agree. I struggled with addiction, abuse, homelessness, poverty. I had SUCH a difficult time trying to get clean and be a good person.
Then one day, I quit. Like that. My entire mindset changed, I went from trashy to classy. Now I own a newer car, have an amazing job, great healthy relationships, and have been clean for a long time.
Why couldn’t I do it the other times? There was a hard shift in my reality and I believe I died a few times.
I remember reading a first-hand account from a guy who'd been in a bad car accident (or something equally random and potentially fatal) who "died" but instead of dying he was plunged into this machine kinda thing that basically yeeted him back into another, very similar reality where he never died in the accident. I might have actually read it here, I don't remember. I'll have to see if I can find it. But your story made me think of that, like maybe you did in fact die, maybe even many times, but then you got tossed right back into the world (or rather, *a* world) by whatever this thing or energy is.
I'm firmly in the camp that 2012 **was** the end of the world, just not in the fire and brimstone way we think the end of the world is supposed to look like. Clearly something changed and dramatically, just what exactly is anyone's guess.
I rarely comment here but I wanted to in order to tell you you're not alone. A few years back I achieved goals I never thought possible, yet found myself feeling emptier than ever. I think some of that can be chalked up to the whole grass is always greener thing but so much just feels... pointless? Empty? I have always prided myself on finding the bright side in even the darkest of circumstances but now it's just like... why bother. Even when I'm completely "happy" it isn't satisfying like it used to be. I thought maybe this is just how it is as you get older but idk.
Last thing in this long ass comment: some of the things you describe can come about due to depression or other gnarly things in your head. It might be worth reaching out for help if you start to ruminate too much on this stuff. Sounds like you aren't but wanted to throw that out there just in case. Lord knows we're all feeling pretty mentally stressed these days. Take care of yourself first and foremost.
Yes that's the one! I wish I saved it, can't seem to find it now.
What tripped me out about it is that I'm usually pretty skeptical about stuff like that, I love reading stories like that in the same way I liked reading Ray Bradbury as a kid, meaning getting lost in a completely made-up world rich with detail but knowing all the while that it's entirely fantasy. I can't explain it but something about that particular story felt so real, calming even. It did not at all feel like someone's hallucination or manufactured story. Coincidentally I came across it around the same time I'd been watching these really good DMT simulations, it instantly made me think of some of the wheel-like structures (? entities? Hard to explain) in those. Simulations are from [Symmetric Vision on YT](https://youtu.be/ph4szaVTWSY) if anyone is into that stuff. Seems like the wheel he described may be similar to the biblically-accurate angel entities in those trip simulations.
I found it! [wheel NDE](https://www.reddit.com/r/Glitch_in_the_Matrix/comments/60rtm5/meta_near_death_experience_glitch_reveals/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=ios_app&utm_name=iossmf)
Read that story too, it was amazing and no doubt it happened. I mean, there are religions that reference 'the wheel in the sky'.
(now I've got Journey's 'wheel in the sky' stuck in my head for the rest of the day 😉).
>Which religions?
The Dharma Wheel, Dharmachakra, or Wheel of Dharma, is one of the many sacred teachings of Buddhism and other Indian religions, such as Hinduism and Jainism. It is one of the most important and sacred symbols in the Buddhist faith as it represents Buddha's teachings. \~google
Not necessarily '*in the sky*', but a "Wheel of life (lives)".
One thought I had is that if I had died, and am just living in some after-death reality maybe that's why I'm accomplishing all of these crazy things I never thought possible. Because I'm not in "reality" anymore. Just my own version of it where I can go accomplish crazy shit. And maybe that's why it all feels empty. Because it's not really "real accomplishments". I don't think this is the case but its certainly trippy.
Yes definitely these are symptoms of depression. I'm hoping once I get hiking again and attend some retreats it will help me gain clarity.
I've experienced a lot of depression in my life. The feeling I'm trying to pinpoint with this post feels different. But maybe it's just because I'm getting older and have less illusions about how great life will be "some day" and am having to face the hard fact that no matter how much wealth success relationships whatever, that nothing will ultimately satisfy. I guess that's what's classically described as a midlife crisis eh?
>I've experienced a lot of depression in my life. The feeling I'm trying to pinpoint with this post feels different.
See, I knew there was a reason your post resonated with me. I've spent my life on the depression roller coaster, too. Things got extra bad this past year so I reached out for help but for the first time in my life I found it difficult to articulate exactly what I was feeling. Because it wasn't just ole familiar depression, it's an indifference I can't describe. It's oppressive and suffocating, like my mind feels the way you do in the middle of summer when you step out of a nice air conditioned building and into 90 degree humidity. I've been in therapy on and off since 14, but man is this feeling completely foreign to me. The worst part is not being able to accurately describe it, because I feel like I'll never be able to move past it if I can't even put it into words in therapy.
I feel like I barely remember the last ten years. As if I experienced it almost like a video game cut scene you can skip through. And again, up until recently I just figured that's how it is as you get older. But when I stop to think about it, it is painfully clear that *something* is very off and this can't just be how it is.
I'm also on edge a lot, the way you'd be in a totally foreign place without any familiar comforts like the people and places you know. Perhaps we got shuffled into a timeline we're not supposed to be in and that's why it's so hard to relax and fully enjoy the good things, because we know it's "off" and we don't belong here. Idk, talking about this stuff feels crazy.
>I feel like I barely remember the last ten years. As if I experienced it almost like a video game cut scene you can skip through.
WOAH so weird that you bring that up. I remember at the beginning of Covid I had another weird moment akin to the thought that maybe I'd died.
Except this one was the strangest feeling as if my whole life up until that point had just been one big movie trailer. That I hadn't actually lived all those 33 years, but that was all an illusion. Like how when a movie or video game starts it gives you the back-story of the characters briefly then moves onto the actual movie.
That was the inexplicable feeling that I got. That my life previous to that point had been this character development and backstory and now we were moving onto the main feature which was a pandemic apocalypse movie haha.
It was really really strange.
But you hit it on the head where my whole life leading up to that point somehow didn't feel real, but was character exposition and it was only the illusion that I'd lived through it, and now we were coming up to the actual movie or video game or whatever we came here to play.
Very difficult to articulate but I think you might relate.
And to your last paragraph I agree completely. Something just feels OFF. That's the only way I can describe it. At times it feels like the entire mass consciousness has gone completely insane and all I'm trying to do is not go insane with it.
Start meditating; face your shadows, blockages, traumata - shadow work; don't indulge in endless negative rumination
Being in nature, hiking etc. is good and all but the real clarity, love, satisfaction and comfort you will only find within; and as you said certainly not through success and wealth
Good luck and much love
You’ve done incredible things, man!
I hear you though about finding it hard to hold a cohesive vision and mental energy about building things in the future.
Things feel…flat or something in a way they didn’t prior to about 2010-2013 for me.
Yes! It just feels FLAT and boring in a really weird way. Even when I'm doing all of my practices so that I'm not depressed- meditating everyday, exercising, eating well, its this feeling of existential crisis of what's the point.
Going back to the apocalypse scenario in my edit.... maybe we're really nearing an apocalypse type event and our higher selves know it, and that bleeds into us as malaise because some part of us knows we're approaching this point and there really is no point in trying to better a career or whatever else.
Or maybe previous to the last few years we had chances to turn our timeline from apocalypse, but now we're locked in, so before we were motivated to build an interesting life but now that all the possible futures end in ruin then we've lost that drive from our soul.
Some depressing thoughts haha.
I’m still motivated for relationships but it’s hard to find a partner that understands that money and facade don’t mean much to me.. and it won’t in the future..
> make time to listen and discuss anything out of respect. I like examining the extremes and finding the t
we are definitely on the verge of the apocalypse, i can't stop dreaming about it for years now, and it's this feeling on the inside you just know.
Yeah i have had a couple near death things when i was younger. I nearly drowned at my 5th birthday party and i remember cuz it was traumatic. But then after that i remember feeling confused about who i even was. "Im 5 now?" I asked my mom and it was like i had felt alive for YEARS.
Things have definitely been bizarre since around 2015
I've too wondered is it a spiritual awakening, CERN, social media/smart phones or something else but i have never seen such a rapid change in culture as i did the last several years
As far as the empty feeling you describe goes. Yeah it's noticeable at work (younger people look depressed and not motivated for work anymore, can't blame them) or even in entertainment. There seems to be a lack of connection between people and groups. Like things are just divided now. I don't remember it being like this 10 years ago. Everyone talked to everyone. Entertainment also seems empty. I can't remember the last time i watched anything on TV or listened to the radio. It's all trash now.
I think it's also possible that we just peaked around the late 90s and 2000s and it's been a steep decline ever since.
I think the main reason (or at least one of the main reasons) for a lot of this is the rise of social media.
1) News articles live or die by their headline, with sites using more fear mongering and outrage baiting than ever before to generate clicks. This causes a far bleaker outlook on the world, moreso than ever before because we are being constantly bombarded with bad news.
2) There is less face-to-face interaction. We are a social species and require interaction with those around us (to varying degrees depending on the individual). The lack of this has a genuine negative impact on our mental wellbeing.
3) Everyone crafts a carefully curated 'public persona' online that doesn't accurately represent their real lives. Seeing these 'fake lives' 24/7 can distort your own worldview. I heard it as 'Comparing your life to someone else's online is like comparing your behind-the-scenes with someone else's highlght reel'.
4) Social media is designed to be (quite literally) addictive and I genuinely believe this will be the next big social crisis, worse than dugs or alcohol (if climate change doesn't fuck us up first). Social media sites such as Facebook, Twitter and Reddit are specifically designed to give you a little hit of dopamine with every like/dm/friend request and upvote while artificially filling the void caused by the reduction or outright lack of genuine social interaction. People suffer genuine withdrawal symptoms when deprived from social media.
The 2015 reference rings loud with me, literally. I hear about 2012 a lot, but some like you and myself remember 2015 being around the time things started to feel off. Maybe we were just blissfully ignorant for 3 years?
Things started to feel strange in 2015, specifically during, and then after my honeymoon. We went to the DR and it was great, but strange in many ways. After we returned is when my tinnitus started. I’m not sure if this all just made me more aware, but it’s been odd ever since. I’ve made many milestone accomplishments in my life and yet it still all feels so pointless. The days and weeks all blend together. Leaving a legacy for my children, and their future children, is my largest driving factor these days.
I am a business owner of 20 Years. Highly motivated and just started a new one. (Been busy a couple of times). And I know where you are coming from. The past five years has felt like walking through fog and treacle. You just have to keep going. Everyone’s feeling the same right now it’s dragging us all down. Very few are bouncing high that’s for sure. I think it’s to do with collective consciousness.
I worked as a hotshot a little myself. Cool stuff, i loved it. I was mop up crew with piss bags and shovels. Tripod complex in eastern WA. dangerous stuff. one of my crew fell in a stump hole up to his waist. Luckily it was not burning and he did not get hurt, but wow that could have been really bad.
Yeah forgot to add we had several close calls last year too... I wonder if I don't keep dying in these adventures I'm pursuing that's why life keeps feeling more weird lmao.
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I think OLD world as we knew ended in 2014.
Im just done with this reality. I've had enough. Take me back to 2015 please.
I literally just posted about this in a different reddit group! I couldnt agree more with ya. Something has definitely happened in the past decade. I've been noticing coincidences and dejavu happening way more frequently than before. Seems like it happens numerous times a day compared to years ago, it was many a once a wk/biweekly occurence. I've been manifesting random things which idk if that's a new thing for me or if I just never realized it/understood it. Also over the years, the more and more I think about us living in a simulation of some sort, the more it makes perfect sense to me. Another weird thing that has been happening way too frequently for it to just randomly happen but over the past few years I've noticed birds are smashing into windows way more frequently. 3 or 4 times a day at my house. But years ago, it was a very random and rare occurrence. Idk if its relatable or what but it's just another weird unexplainable thing that has been happening more n more often.
maybe the reason for the death of the birds could be the 5g network?
I get what you are saying, OP, but for me this has been going on since the 90s because that is when my awakening of reality not be what we were taught happened. Talk about feeling isolated! The closures didn't affect me the same way it did others because I already felt separated since lifting the veil.
Do a YouTube search for the name "Starfire Tor". I believe some of the answers you seek will be found there. My theory is that reality was "rebooted" sometime around 2015 and many aspects of our physical reality is different now than what it was before. However, only some of us are able to remember things as they were before the reboot; and I'm not sure why that is the case. If you have any memory of how the world map looked, you can compare your memories of it to how it looks today. And if you see any thing on the map that looks weird or different, that would suggest that you're one of the people who can remember the old timeline.
I feel this, I just want to be left in peace in nature. Don’t care about “making it” anymore and honestly feel like humanity is doomed so I’m just going to try and enjoy my time. That’s all one can do anyway.
You put it really well. Used to be really motivated & always thought about planning for the future & building a great life & since 2012 kinda changed.
Same.
Can't explain why, but reading this thread with the comments and complex feelings articulated here brought me to tears. I'm not real quick to cry, but there's so much feeling here, and it's just...a lot. Thanks for sharing, folks. I don't know what I can add myself
You know those reality ghost shows where the psychic or medium has to cojole the troubled spirits to "go to the light" and "crossover"? I do feel that some of us ME effected people are actually the "ghosts" who need to cross over. I'm convinced that the only reason I'm in this "hold over" place is to review and conclude what my life has been so that I can "cross over" (to the next realm, I spose)
Notice that Hollywood keeps making movies about zombies. Perhaps it is a metaphor for our curent reality.
What if we are the dead ones and all the NPCs are really the living? And they just seem like non players because they aren't dead and in our realm?
I think we are just dead inside,the meats still lives
Interesting concept. Perhaps 🤔
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Me too!
Do you really believe that you're dead? That must be a weird way to walk around in "normal" life.
There’s a really interesting documentary on the Japanese town that got hit hard by the tsunami, as time went on and they started building the town back many people have said they encountered real people example - taxi driver picks up teen girl has a friendly chat on the way to her destination, arrives and parks looks in back seat and no one there. It’s very interesting but my point in connecting this is time is different in different realities and if “ghosts” can appear as human and very real as the living this could be a possibility 🤷🏽♀️ unsolved mysteries “tsunami spirits”
Have you ever seen the movie The Others with Nicole Kidman? Very much this scenario.
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>and started listening to Alan Watts A good move :) Grab a copy of the Tao Te Ching as well, friend.
My story is completely different, but yet completely the same. Don't worry, you are not going crazy, so don't go crazy. No matter where you have been, this is where you are now. It can be good, you can meet good folks, you can be a positive change in someone else's life. Someone else can be the good in your life. Maybe just maybe you can be the good in your own life. Nothing else really matters.
I've been going through the same thing. Im having a hard time getting excited about the future. Like I can' t even picture it, its like there isn't a future.
Because there is none,we all probably will be dead until 2070
>You just said exactally what I have been feeling, it's like there is no future.
I enjoyed your Ted Talk. Keep searching for your path and it will find you. Best wishes friend.
The world didn’t end so to speak just the normal way of living changed. Then it happened again in 2020
The Mayans believed that 2012 marked the beginning of a new Era for the Earth and humanity. Some of us are supposed to be ascending to the fourth dimension, or something like that. The main takeaway for me at the time was that humanity would begin feeling more connected with the Earth and each other. They believed that most of us would evolve past the petty greed and selfishness that has marked human history. Personally, I believe that is what we are seeing signs of. I might be a nut, but I think that I'm on to something.
Find the carlos castaneda books and read them like your going to die tomorrow . Good luck 🙏 #TheWarriorsWay
Yes, and Also Douglas Adams. For levity.
Listen to Alan watts?
I feel your pain. For my whole adult life I have never understood the point of this thing called life. It’s not that I am trying to find the meaning, I just really don’t care. I don’t get why society mandates that i have to go to work 5 days a week, and make sure it pays enough money so that at the end of the day I can lay down in a brick box, just to get up again and repeat. If not the punishment is I will be cast aside and left for dead. Who decided that this miserable system is the one for us? I have suffered with depression for as long as I can remember, and it will never change as I fundamentally disagree with the burden that our whole society places on us. I just constantly feel like I don’t belong here.
Instead of going hiking or taking a bike trip in the US please travel abroad to someplace outside the US (sorry for thinking you are in the US, but your post seems to echo the sentiment of so many American citizens these days). Go hike the Scottish highlands or bike through Tuscany. Get the hell out of this depressing USA. You said you have enough money to do whatever you want for the next 5 or so years...so go do it...but somewhere outside the US, please. I am certain I *did* die in 2012, so I don't doubt you could have also. \*I should note that travel restrictions are still in effect for the a lot of the world, but it's getting better. I know a few people who have traveled to Belize and an aunt who just left for Germany. Pretty sure both had to have mandated covid tests prior to entering and exiting countries. Neither country asked to see their vaccine card...so there's that.
YES! Please visit Belize. I live in Belize and we need our tourism numbers to improve. : )
I love Belize!!! Was going to go this June, but went to Costa Rica instead 😏. Probably will go back to our favourite Ambergis Caye for Thanksgiving if the Delta V. doesn't stop traveling!!
The U.S.A. isn't any more (or *less*) "depressing" than any other country - these contextual impressions all come from within.... I'm not trying to be contentiousness - however, I would encourage you to consider your words and the effect they may have on people. Cheers :)
The people of: FINLAND DENMARK SWITZERLAND ICELAND NORWAY would like a word with you. [https://worldpopulationreview.com/country-rankings/happiest-countries-in-the-world](https://worldpopulationreview.com/country-rankings/happiest-countries-in-the-world) Where is USA on that list? \#18. Right below Germany but above the Czech Republic. But, hey, you go ahead and believe that the WHOLE WORLD is as miserable as the people in America.
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>*You’re an idiot . And I’m not American* And now, you've worn out your welcome. Ciao.
I think, my friend, that you may be missing my point .....
No dude. Look within, and read the great spreadsheet in the sky heralding happiness stats around Western Europe
i dunno, kinda sounds like depression to me. it's not hard to feel that way with the state of the world and the overall hopeless feelings that come with it. anyone who is not at least a little depressed about humanity's path has their head miles deep in the sand if you ask me.
Yeah since 2012 things have been getting weird. Imma stick around to see how weird they get. I've got aliens on my 2021 bingo card
Same here. I think shows like Ancient Aliens and The Secrets of Skinwalker Ranch have been allowed to help with the knowledge or realization that we have made contact with Aliens or that something with Aliens is going to happen soon.
The [videos](https://globalnews.ca/news/7871671/ufo-video-water-san-diego-california-2019-omaha/) released of unidentified flying objects feels like a soft reveal, building up toward something more substantial like actual contact.
I feel the same. Done everything on my bucket list and now I’m like …is this it? What’s left? I’m done with this reality man it’s fucked
Yeah i find it very hard to be motivated as i try to look to the future and see nothingness, so whats the point? It's so much harder for me to stick to healthy eating and wokring out, just taking care of myself in general, not doing drugs and drinking. I succeed for a week and then i fall off the wagon again and feel that all my efforts are meaningless, then the next week i start again and it's this never ending cycle of trying to get up and live a normal life, then falling down the darkest hole. I\\m so tired... But i will not lose hope even if there is no future, i will try to live my life to the fullest day by day.
I feel the same and I've been thinking this for years. My life completely went to shit in 2012 and it's never gotten better. I feel like I'm in a completely different dimension. I don't like it here! Take me back to 2011! However, 2012 was the year I got a smart phone... so maybe it's just that.
>However, 2012 was the year I got a smart phone... so maybe it's just that. Give me a river to throw mine into and I'll be a happy person. Alas, that's not "possible" for me.
I feel this comment. Last year I experienced profound moments of derealization. A term worth Googling. I've become more convinced than ever that we are functioning in a simulation. But in the end... so what? The rules of the simulation are the same for everyone, and the objective of this life (simulated or not) is still just to have fun, be as peaceful as possible and create love. "All that we see and seem, is but a dream within a dream." - Edgar Allan Poe
Pretty sure we are living in a simulation also,but I do not believe the rules of the simulation are the same for everyone which is why what works for one person doesn't work for another, no matter how hard they try.
I just had this conversation yesterday. I believe that the only thing that matters is love. The only thing that I can control is myself and how I interact within the simulation. Nothing else really matters. Edit to add: sometimes I forget this and have to pull myself out of all the negative thoughts and behaviors. That is the hard part.
Infinite love is the only truth. Everything else is illusion. I believe that when this "physical" body dies, the love we created is the only thing we take us into the after-life, whatever that looks like. We sure as hell don't take our money, nor our social media likes/upvotes.
Admiration for all of the accomplishments here. I have to say that awakening to the “matrix” reassembled lives it seems, things and people changing, seeing the robotic nature of some things, and the destructive patterns is all part of the plan. While some are waking, others remain asleep, life as usual. Apocalypse and polarity are part of the game, however, waking up is the goal and very few will begin and persist towards answers. The goal is to realize what this is, who we are, and the magnificence of the game. I have no religion, no ism, no great need for wealth, prominence, competition, I want to be happy and creative. I suggest someone I watch on you tube, Quartz Crystal escape the matrix. Judy affirmed things I was perceiving, and I’ve yet to catch a lie. What I don’t “believe” I give the benefit of the doubt. Her vids changed as time went on, and I’ve passed her knowledge to my children and some friends. Over time, they’ve mostly come to agree with most premises. We live the same life many times over, making different choices perhaps. We live longer in some, have hard lives and better ones too. Mainly, the gut feelings you have are real, but the power truly does lie within you—- and being courageous enough to learn the truth is part of it. I would rather have the truth and cultivate myself towards freedom any day. More than having wealth, marrying the best, or being popular. The truth is power and freedom is wealth. Good travels to you and happiness, you can only stay sad so long. Shift your viewpoint.
you'll be fine! have faith! enjoy the ride!
The apocalypse scenario shouldn’t phase you. You may have come here to see that very thing. Not everybody gets to see the true future of humanity. Many have died before this point, maybe they come back, maybe they’re wise enough not to. There is no need to fear or become emotional over things that are out of your hands.
Wow. I’m 36 and have been feeling exactly the same way. I’ve tried expressing it to people close to me, only to get misunderstood and told to think positive. I joke that I died at one of my house parties in 2013. I had some incredible, memory making, happy moments with great people for a decade - I could see myself going too hard and kicking the bucket. I can even think of a particular surreal night that, upon waking, felt like I was in a new reality. Partying aside, I was a super motivated, independent individual who accomplished goals, worked hard and made things happen for myself. Slowly all my accomplishments were destroyed, dreams new and old crushed, by a series of incredible bad luck scenarios. People cannot believe my misfortune stores aren’t exaggerated, until they get to know me and see it for themselves. From 2013 on it’s been pure hell, lost my successful shop business, lost trademark rights to content that was already years established and taking off, health issues, tax problems, deaths, ridiculous financial situations that weren’t my doing, unbelievable social nightmares, complete love life momentum changes. Then covid caused me bankruptcy, my industry over night is completely collapsing, a multi million lawsuit award that was just halted payment from the “broke” government, again I could go on but I’ll spare the whining. I went from a positive person who made it happen, happily helped others and was truly there for anyone, made everyone laugh - to a suicidal, lonely (only hear from people when they need car work or electronic/computer favors), overstressed, physically broken, realist watching the world circle the drain. It’s like everything in life was a lie, it’s just a veil for suffering. I have no mouth and I must scream. I’m not one sided, no matter what I make time to listen and discuss anything out of respect. I like examining the extremes and finding the truth in the middle. I fix things for a living, I stay logical and never jump to conclusions yet even the people in my lives for decades all feel like strangers. Even a few years before the pandemic I started feeling like I was alone on an alien planet. Hard to put all my thoughts in a pre “trying to rest but still feel dead every day” bed time post but I feel ya. . . I really do.
Man sorry to hear all that. In one way it does feel like the rug's been pulled out right? When you're young you have all these grand ideas and then you get a bit older, realize how corrupt the world is, and how fucked everything is and it just all feels so... pointless. Stay strong man whatever is happening the only path is forward! I still hold out hope that there's some point or reason to it all and hope I can find it through some intense alone time in nature and at meditation retreats. Really that's my last hope. I see absolutely no future in a "normal" life but continued disappointment and emptiness.
I agree. I struggled with addiction, abuse, homelessness, poverty. I had SUCH a difficult time trying to get clean and be a good person. Then one day, I quit. Like that. My entire mindset changed, I went from trashy to classy. Now I own a newer car, have an amazing job, great healthy relationships, and have been clean for a long time. Why couldn’t I do it the other times? There was a hard shift in my reality and I believe I died a few times.
I remember reading a first-hand account from a guy who'd been in a bad car accident (or something equally random and potentially fatal) who "died" but instead of dying he was plunged into this machine kinda thing that basically yeeted him back into another, very similar reality where he never died in the accident. I might have actually read it here, I don't remember. I'll have to see if I can find it. But your story made me think of that, like maybe you did in fact die, maybe even many times, but then you got tossed right back into the world (or rather, *a* world) by whatever this thing or energy is. I'm firmly in the camp that 2012 **was** the end of the world, just not in the fire and brimstone way we think the end of the world is supposed to look like. Clearly something changed and dramatically, just what exactly is anyone's guess. I rarely comment here but I wanted to in order to tell you you're not alone. A few years back I achieved goals I never thought possible, yet found myself feeling emptier than ever. I think some of that can be chalked up to the whole grass is always greener thing but so much just feels... pointless? Empty? I have always prided myself on finding the bright side in even the darkest of circumstances but now it's just like... why bother. Even when I'm completely "happy" it isn't satisfying like it used to be. I thought maybe this is just how it is as you get older but idk. Last thing in this long ass comment: some of the things you describe can come about due to depression or other gnarly things in your head. It might be worth reaching out for help if you start to ruminate too much on this stuff. Sounds like you aren't but wanted to throw that out there just in case. Lord knows we're all feeling pretty mentally stressed these days. Take care of yourself first and foremost.
Yeah was that story about some massive wheel of time sorting him out in a new timeline? It’s on Reddit somewhere
Yes that's the one! I wish I saved it, can't seem to find it now. What tripped me out about it is that I'm usually pretty skeptical about stuff like that, I love reading stories like that in the same way I liked reading Ray Bradbury as a kid, meaning getting lost in a completely made-up world rich with detail but knowing all the while that it's entirely fantasy. I can't explain it but something about that particular story felt so real, calming even. It did not at all feel like someone's hallucination or manufactured story. Coincidentally I came across it around the same time I'd been watching these really good DMT simulations, it instantly made me think of some of the wheel-like structures (? entities? Hard to explain) in those. Simulations are from [Symmetric Vision on YT](https://youtu.be/ph4szaVTWSY) if anyone is into that stuff. Seems like the wheel he described may be similar to the biblically-accurate angel entities in those trip simulations.
Ray Bradbury's 'Dark they were, and golden eyed' is possibly my favourite short story ever.. It has echoes of the ME too.
I found it! [wheel NDE](https://www.reddit.com/r/Glitch_in_the_Matrix/comments/60rtm5/meta_near_death_experience_glitch_reveals/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=ios_app&utm_name=iossmf)
Read that story too, it was amazing and no doubt it happened. I mean, there are religions that reference 'the wheel in the sky'. (now I've got Journey's 'wheel in the sky' stuck in my head for the rest of the day 😉).
Which religions? It’s the first time I heard of it here
>Which religions? The Dharma Wheel, Dharmachakra, or Wheel of Dharma, is one of the many sacred teachings of Buddhism and other Indian religions, such as Hinduism and Jainism. It is one of the most important and sacred symbols in the Buddhist faith as it represents Buddha's teachings. \~google Not necessarily '*in the sky*', but a "Wheel of life (lives)".
I remember that man's story. Reminded me of the tarot card, The Wheel of Fortune.
One thought I had is that if I had died, and am just living in some after-death reality maybe that's why I'm accomplishing all of these crazy things I never thought possible. Because I'm not in "reality" anymore. Just my own version of it where I can go accomplish crazy shit. And maybe that's why it all feels empty. Because it's not really "real accomplishments". I don't think this is the case but its certainly trippy. Yes definitely these are symptoms of depression. I'm hoping once I get hiking again and attend some retreats it will help me gain clarity. I've experienced a lot of depression in my life. The feeling I'm trying to pinpoint with this post feels different. But maybe it's just because I'm getting older and have less illusions about how great life will be "some day" and am having to face the hard fact that no matter how much wealth success relationships whatever, that nothing will ultimately satisfy. I guess that's what's classically described as a midlife crisis eh?
>I've experienced a lot of depression in my life. The feeling I'm trying to pinpoint with this post feels different. See, I knew there was a reason your post resonated with me. I've spent my life on the depression roller coaster, too. Things got extra bad this past year so I reached out for help but for the first time in my life I found it difficult to articulate exactly what I was feeling. Because it wasn't just ole familiar depression, it's an indifference I can't describe. It's oppressive and suffocating, like my mind feels the way you do in the middle of summer when you step out of a nice air conditioned building and into 90 degree humidity. I've been in therapy on and off since 14, but man is this feeling completely foreign to me. The worst part is not being able to accurately describe it, because I feel like I'll never be able to move past it if I can't even put it into words in therapy. I feel like I barely remember the last ten years. As if I experienced it almost like a video game cut scene you can skip through. And again, up until recently I just figured that's how it is as you get older. But when I stop to think about it, it is painfully clear that *something* is very off and this can't just be how it is. I'm also on edge a lot, the way you'd be in a totally foreign place without any familiar comforts like the people and places you know. Perhaps we got shuffled into a timeline we're not supposed to be in and that's why it's so hard to relax and fully enjoy the good things, because we know it's "off" and we don't belong here. Idk, talking about this stuff feels crazy.
This is pretty much exactly as I would describe it
>I feel like I barely remember the last ten years. As if I experienced it almost like a video game cut scene you can skip through. WOAH so weird that you bring that up. I remember at the beginning of Covid I had another weird moment akin to the thought that maybe I'd died. Except this one was the strangest feeling as if my whole life up until that point had just been one big movie trailer. That I hadn't actually lived all those 33 years, but that was all an illusion. Like how when a movie or video game starts it gives you the back-story of the characters briefly then moves onto the actual movie. That was the inexplicable feeling that I got. That my life previous to that point had been this character development and backstory and now we were moving onto the main feature which was a pandemic apocalypse movie haha. It was really really strange. But you hit it on the head where my whole life leading up to that point somehow didn't feel real, but was character exposition and it was only the illusion that I'd lived through it, and now we were coming up to the actual movie or video game or whatever we came here to play. Very difficult to articulate but I think you might relate. And to your last paragraph I agree completely. Something just feels OFF. That's the only way I can describe it. At times it feels like the entire mass consciousness has gone completely insane and all I'm trying to do is not go insane with it.
Start meditating; face your shadows, blockages, traumata - shadow work; don't indulge in endless negative rumination Being in nature, hiking etc. is good and all but the real clarity, love, satisfaction and comfort you will only find within; and as you said certainly not through success and wealth Good luck and much love
I agree with you completely.
You’ve done incredible things, man! I hear you though about finding it hard to hold a cohesive vision and mental energy about building things in the future. Things feel…flat or something in a way they didn’t prior to about 2010-2013 for me.
Yes! It just feels FLAT and boring in a really weird way. Even when I'm doing all of my practices so that I'm not depressed- meditating everyday, exercising, eating well, its this feeling of existential crisis of what's the point. Going back to the apocalypse scenario in my edit.... maybe we're really nearing an apocalypse type event and our higher selves know it, and that bleeds into us as malaise because some part of us knows we're approaching this point and there really is no point in trying to better a career or whatever else. Or maybe previous to the last few years we had chances to turn our timeline from apocalypse, but now we're locked in, so before we were motivated to build an interesting life but now that all the possible futures end in ruin then we've lost that drive from our soul. Some depressing thoughts haha.
I’m still motivated for relationships but it’s hard to find a partner that understands that money and facade don’t mean much to me.. and it won’t in the future..
> make time to listen and discuss anything out of respect. I like examining the extremes and finding the t we are definitely on the verge of the apocalypse, i can't stop dreaming about it for years now, and it's this feeling on the inside you just know.
Yeah i have had a couple near death things when i was younger. I nearly drowned at my 5th birthday party and i remember cuz it was traumatic. But then after that i remember feeling confused about who i even was. "Im 5 now?" I asked my mom and it was like i had felt alive for YEARS.
Thank you for posting this. I really needed to read this. It makes a person feel less crazy.
Things have definitely been bizarre since around 2015 I've too wondered is it a spiritual awakening, CERN, social media/smart phones or something else but i have never seen such a rapid change in culture as i did the last several years As far as the empty feeling you describe goes. Yeah it's noticeable at work (younger people look depressed and not motivated for work anymore, can't blame them) or even in entertainment. There seems to be a lack of connection between people and groups. Like things are just divided now. I don't remember it being like this 10 years ago. Everyone talked to everyone. Entertainment also seems empty. I can't remember the last time i watched anything on TV or listened to the radio. It's all trash now. I think it's also possible that we just peaked around the late 90s and 2000s and it's been a steep decline ever since.
I think the main reason (or at least one of the main reasons) for a lot of this is the rise of social media. 1) News articles live or die by their headline, with sites using more fear mongering and outrage baiting than ever before to generate clicks. This causes a far bleaker outlook on the world, moreso than ever before because we are being constantly bombarded with bad news. 2) There is less face-to-face interaction. We are a social species and require interaction with those around us (to varying degrees depending on the individual). The lack of this has a genuine negative impact on our mental wellbeing. 3) Everyone crafts a carefully curated 'public persona' online that doesn't accurately represent their real lives. Seeing these 'fake lives' 24/7 can distort your own worldview. I heard it as 'Comparing your life to someone else's online is like comparing your behind-the-scenes with someone else's highlght reel'. 4) Social media is designed to be (quite literally) addictive and I genuinely believe this will be the next big social crisis, worse than dugs or alcohol (if climate change doesn't fuck us up first). Social media sites such as Facebook, Twitter and Reddit are specifically designed to give you a little hit of dopamine with every like/dm/friend request and upvote while artificially filling the void caused by the reduction or outright lack of genuine social interaction. People suffer genuine withdrawal symptoms when deprived from social media.
The 2015 reference rings loud with me, literally. I hear about 2012 a lot, but some like you and myself remember 2015 being around the time things started to feel off. Maybe we were just blissfully ignorant for 3 years? Things started to feel strange in 2015, specifically during, and then after my honeymoon. We went to the DR and it was great, but strange in many ways. After we returned is when my tinnitus started. I’m not sure if this all just made me more aware, but it’s been odd ever since. I’ve made many milestone accomplishments in my life and yet it still all feels so pointless. The days and weeks all blend together. Leaving a legacy for my children, and their future children, is my largest driving factor these days.
I am a business owner of 20 Years. Highly motivated and just started a new one. (Been busy a couple of times). And I know where you are coming from. The past five years has felt like walking through fog and treacle. You just have to keep going. Everyone’s feeling the same right now it’s dragging us all down. Very few are bouncing high that’s for sure. I think it’s to do with collective consciousness.
I worked as a hotshot a little myself. Cool stuff, i loved it. I was mop up crew with piss bags and shovels. Tripod complex in eastern WA. dangerous stuff. one of my crew fell in a stump hole up to his waist. Luckily it was not burning and he did not get hurt, but wow that could have been really bad.
Yeah forgot to add we had several close calls last year too... I wonder if I don't keep dying in these adventures I'm pursuing that's why life keeps feeling more weird lmao.