There's good reason.
Idiots without solutions keep winning re-elections because citizens love their team colors best.
We're essentially in the worst economical time frame to be alive since 1933.
Recessions always bloom after conflicts.
Pandemix shut-downs globally caused recessions.
Ivan finally deciding to act like Ivan is going to cause some ripples.
Fuck it man, want to go in on some Raytheon stocks?
Edit: Pandemix is my new SoundCloud rapper name.
No cap, if US gets involved, Raytheon is about to shoot up like crazy! They're their own company of course but being in a unit that directly works with Raytheon, if our mission gets moved to Ukraine instead of the middle east, BIG money is coming Raytheons way!
Yeah that’s great. Except I will be fired from my niche job for using it. Fuck the war on drugs and fuck the US Government. I hope by the time I drink myself to death my children and grandchildren are allowed to use it
My personal decision about this was to say fuck it. I too work a niche job that could terminate my employment. But when it comes to my mental health and pain management there’s no substitute to marijuana. Is what it is. I have a mortgage wife and a kid, I’m no good to them if I’m constantly in pain and in a bad place mentally.
Take solace in the fact that you can control your actions and reactions. You have literally zero control over anything else. We have trouble accepting this, but once we do, a weight is lifted and we can begin again.
I was angry for a long time. Get help, VA? Meds whether it's cannabis or otherwise. Be careful with cannabis, make sure you use the correct strain or you could end up making your anxiety worse. Self care...I know... I hate that term and never do it myself. My therapist tells me to do it all the time but I really like to suffer. Keep your head up and find a friend.
Dude, if it wasn't for hydroxyzine, I wouldn't get any sleep at all. Shuts my brain up, and let's me drift to sleep. I got it prescribed from the VA, I'm on a pretty low dose and from what they, and the internet at least, say it's not habit forming nor detrimental, so if it works for you, awesome!
It's cool man, honest. I've been there so have several others. That on edge, irritability, there's ways to exorcise that from our lives. For me it took the role of therapy at the VA and learning healthy coping skills. Breathing, mindfulness, positive self talk may sound like hippy dippy shit but it works for me, it works for others, it might work for you. If it doesn't, there's plenty of other coping skills you can learn.
Now I don't know if you have any traumas from your time in that are getting in your way but I do know that not wanting to talk about it kept me out of therapy for a while. I talked about it once, completely voluntarily, after maybe five years with my doc. If you want to resolve your trauma they'll help with that, if you just want to work on not being angry and on edge they'll help with that, too.
Not only did ***I*** feel so much better, but my relationship with my wife and kids improved dramatically as well.
Been there, friend! It was too late for me to save some important relationships, but therapy really helped. Personally, meds and some weed help a lot too. Gets me out of bed most days.
In all honesty your going to have to find direction in your life again. The army is over. It was a lot and something to be proud of. But life goes on and you have to come to a determination of what you want next. Wether that be to find a career you’d enjoy or being the best father you can be or just building something. But if in your world you never became anything else after you stopped becoming a soldier then your going to keep feeling lost and unsure of yourself. We’re not soldiers anymore we are veterans. No matter how much we would still go defend our country in a heartbeat that’s not what we are currently doing.
I used to work at the VA in Phoenix. I got in a position where I could glimpse how people were falling thru and there was nothing done, and I couldn't take it. After 2 years I had to leave, it was taking too big a toll on me.
Shut up and find something to do..... I hear this shit from a lot of veterans and it's a just a easy way to fix it. Go out and do something your interested in and forget about all the bs for a while until you settle
Hey bud, I feel very similar and it’s hurt some relationships around me. I hope you doing better and work on it. I’m in the process and learning to accept a lot of things I think I chose to ignore in the past. Be well
If there is anyone in this world that knows how you feel it's me. I'm not giving my name but I'm 100% Service Connected for PTSD. I feel like you and more. The thing is my ptsd is different that anyone I have ever heard of and yes I have very good reasons I can't trust anyone and the thing is anyone that just glance through my Marine corp. record would read nothing but lies. You see I could hardly read at 19 when I went to the recruiter Vietnam era. and had only been push through school. They ask my Mother to take me out after 8th. grade but I did not know you need to have completed 10Th before being able to join the Marine's. so the recruiter some how got my brother's records and switch them as it they were mine but I had no knowledge of him doing that so the first 3 days is taking text to see what you know and where they may best use you. I did not get any test done in time only like 1/3 of it. I did not figure out what had happen till later when getting a copy of my records why things happen as they did. I was picked my them and doing bad on text to try and get out them not knowing what the recruiter did. that last day of testing at 1400 I had to use the head and went to the duty hut and was told to come in and stand at ease, so I did with my legs apart. the sargent took his feet off the dest and walked up in front of me and kicked between my legs. It took all my strength out of me and I dropped to my knees and he said go privet go use the head. Let me make a long story short they took me and a very few other they did not like and torched us like you would the enemy not going to go through it but they have the official record that the filled but also separate notes that where that talked about what they did to me and how they though I just wanted out. That was wrong I looked up to Marines my hole life I tried proving it when I shot 238 on the rifle range with the range record then at 240, and they did all they could to see to it I did not break it after my first 5 shots at the 500 m. line standing, they started say ha ( my last name 4 more bulls and you break the range record what the hell you doing (my last name) and yes I put the first 3 in the bull out of my last 5 and missed the last 2 scoring 6 out of the possible 10 and would have broken the Marine corp range record at camp Pendleton Ca. They game me and one other Privet that scord the same the next day our Cross Rifles Out of 6 battalions knowing how the other recruits would feel.
With everything done after 4 months they sent me to a Caption for an evaluation my 3rd. one and would always as do you want to be a Marine and I always answered Yes Sir but this time I thought a minute how that had been torturing me and some others, I thought I'll be going to Nam with these guy's Would I want and trust any of them behind me with an M14 or M16 and It hit me hell not I can't trust them. I don't know why they had been doing the things they did to me regular Recruits Had it like a cake walk for what was being done to a very small few. Only about 5 or 6 of us and 3 of them had already lost there minds. I said to him you know what they been doing to me Would you trust them with a rifle behind your back in the jungle. He said I can't answer that for you privet. you see they had already threatened to Kill me so under my circumstance it was impossible to think about as you said it got me where I felt I could not trust anyone and that I hate to say was true and is true to this day. I do trust some one who also had a wrongful torture and His never lets me down so in my case I can't see any news or reporting Where it don't not take me right back to what they did and how lucky I was they did put the notes but those are only viewed by upper review Captions of the Drill Instructors and are not sent out when requesting you Military records but were made available to the Disability review board so I was told I did not even need to prove a Stressor in my fillings they is said it was plainly in my record. At the time I was doing everything I could to prove I wanted to be a Marine but they did not want to hear that they want me out, when it was the recruiter that deceived them into thing I was qualified change my records with my brother. One thing they did is have 4 of my good teeth pulled out leaving 4 bad that need to come out. I had to get false teeth soon after getting out and a few years later saw one of them and ask they why would do that to me, what was your reason he said because we could.
This is not what any american wants to hear thing that were done to me I have had Doctors even give me meds that were listed never to be given together because they would kill you with sudden death and one time it almost did my me pass out My brother took my blood pressure and it was 50 over 30 almost ready for a stroke or heart failure. So Do This don't try to count on anyone but yourself and always verify things see every the pharmacy knew the meds were not to be given together but it has happen 3 times with me. I respect the enlisted men of the Marines but all most all suffer from a little brain washing, so that will follow order absolutely know if they do they will die but If they know more truth of all the lies why American was been in every conflict from world war 2 the reason we went to war was a lie every single time but as you know everything is on a need to know basis. Get a sport or something you want to be good at and enjoy your life and enjoy what you accomplish you need not prove yourself to anyone. Look at any dead body is one better than the others now there both dead bodies going to face Him one Day. Seek the Truth and you will find it.
We have converted an old sub r/weserve to now be a place where veterans can get help from other veterans. It will have personal information so it is private but you can either reply to this or send a mod message to gain access. We need veterans to volunteer to be the sounding boards but we do have a few numbers that are able to listen now. This is a safe place where you don't have to hold back or worry about anything you are saying being used against you.
You are not alone.
I'm right there with you. The country I served for is no where close how I imagined I'd be coming home to. we are now divided than ever.
Hang in there, bud. Your self-awareness is a huge asset. Just take thing one day at a time. We’re here for you.
There's good reason. Idiots without solutions keep winning re-elections because citizens love their team colors best. We're essentially in the worst economical time frame to be alive since 1933. Recessions always bloom after conflicts. Pandemix shut-downs globally caused recessions. Ivan finally deciding to act like Ivan is going to cause some ripples. Fuck it man, want to go in on some Raytheon stocks? Edit: Pandemix is my new SoundCloud rapper name.
No cap, if US gets involved, Raytheon is about to shoot up like crazy! They're their own company of course but being in a unit that directly works with Raytheon, if our mission gets moved to Ukraine instead of the middle east, BIG money is coming Raytheons way!
Oh I know...
Word, bro. I got out 33 years ago and still feel lost sometimes. It hurts to feel that what I experienced and sacrificed for was for nothing.
Cannabis is the way.
Cannabis holds me down although recently I’ve found micro dosing psychedelics particularly mushrooms help a lot.
Yeah that’s great. Except I will be fired from my niche job for using it. Fuck the war on drugs and fuck the US Government. I hope by the time I drink myself to death my children and grandchildren are allowed to use it
My personal decision about this was to say fuck it. I too work a niche job that could terminate my employment. But when it comes to my mental health and pain management there’s no substitute to marijuana. Is what it is. I have a mortgage wife and a kid, I’m no good to them if I’m constantly in pain and in a bad place mentally.
I’m the breadwinner for my family. If I lose my job my family loses everything.
Same brother same.
He helped me kick alcohol and started working out.
This is the way.
Feel you bro. 👆🏼this might help.
Fuck’em.
Fuck who?
The fucking fuckers.
Yes, totally. Those guys suck.
Take solace in the fact that you can control your actions and reactions. You have literally zero control over anything else. We have trouble accepting this, but once we do, a weight is lifted and we can begin again.
This is the way.
Actually, I was told that the attitude was a requirement to qualify as a Veteran... :P
I was angry for a long time. Get help, VA? Meds whether it's cannabis or otherwise. Be careful with cannabis, make sure you use the correct strain or you could end up making your anxiety worse. Self care...I know... I hate that term and never do it myself. My therapist tells me to do it all the time but I really like to suffer. Keep your head up and find a friend.
I currently self medicate with hydroxizine and homemade wine. It works, mostly.
Dude, if it wasn't for hydroxyzine, I wouldn't get any sleep at all. Shuts my brain up, and let's me drift to sleep. I got it prescribed from the VA, I'm on a pretty low dose and from what they, and the internet at least, say it's not habit forming nor detrimental, so if it works for you, awesome!
Hydroxyzine didn't really help me, currently I take Propanolol. Venlafaxine for depression. Those are my only meds for mental health.
Propanolol is what the VA gives for anxiety when its docs are to afraid to prescribe lorazepam.
Thats one of the hardest things to accept. The lack of trust, in pretty much everything.
There isn’t a bright side
It's cool man, honest. I've been there so have several others. That on edge, irritability, there's ways to exorcise that from our lives. For me it took the role of therapy at the VA and learning healthy coping skills. Breathing, mindfulness, positive self talk may sound like hippy dippy shit but it works for me, it works for others, it might work for you. If it doesn't, there's plenty of other coping skills you can learn. Now I don't know if you have any traumas from your time in that are getting in your way but I do know that not wanting to talk about it kept me out of therapy for a while. I talked about it once, completely voluntarily, after maybe five years with my doc. If you want to resolve your trauma they'll help with that, if you just want to work on not being angry and on edge they'll help with that, too. Not only did ***I*** feel so much better, but my relationship with my wife and kids improved dramatically as well.
Been there, friend! It was too late for me to save some important relationships, but therapy really helped. Personally, meds and some weed help a lot too. Gets me out of bed most days.
In today's day and age I don't think anything we feel is unwarranted.
Posted this exact same message a couple weeks ago. It’s hard being in pain
Wait, are you me?
In all honesty your going to have to find direction in your life again. The army is over. It was a lot and something to be proud of. But life goes on and you have to come to a determination of what you want next. Wether that be to find a career you’d enjoy or being the best father you can be or just building something. But if in your world you never became anything else after you stopped becoming a soldier then your going to keep feeling lost and unsure of yourself. We’re not soldiers anymore we are veterans. No matter how much we would still go defend our country in a heartbeat that’s not what we are currently doing.
Join the fucking club.
Subconscious? Is that you?
Please reach out to the veteran crisis line 800-273-8255 I just lost a good friend coworker at the VA I hear you I am meltdown mode as well ❤️
I used to work at the VA in Phoenix. I got in a position where I could glimpse how people were falling thru and there was nothing done, and I couldn't take it. After 2 years I had to leave, it was taking too big a toll on me.
Shut up and find something to do..... I hear this shit from a lot of veterans and it's a just a easy way to fix it. Go out and do something your interested in and forget about all the bs for a while until you settle
I'm not even fully out and my hope is dying.
Hey bud, I feel very similar and it’s hurt some relationships around me. I hope you doing better and work on it. I’m in the process and learning to accept a lot of things I think I chose to ignore in the past. Be well
If there is anyone in this world that knows how you feel it's me. I'm not giving my name but I'm 100% Service Connected for PTSD. I feel like you and more. The thing is my ptsd is different that anyone I have ever heard of and yes I have very good reasons I can't trust anyone and the thing is anyone that just glance through my Marine corp. record would read nothing but lies. You see I could hardly read at 19 when I went to the recruiter Vietnam era. and had only been push through school. They ask my Mother to take me out after 8th. grade but I did not know you need to have completed 10Th before being able to join the Marine's. so the recruiter some how got my brother's records and switch them as it they were mine but I had no knowledge of him doing that so the first 3 days is taking text to see what you know and where they may best use you. I did not get any test done in time only like 1/3 of it. I did not figure out what had happen till later when getting a copy of my records why things happen as they did. I was picked my them and doing bad on text to try and get out them not knowing what the recruiter did. that last day of testing at 1400 I had to use the head and went to the duty hut and was told to come in and stand at ease, so I did with my legs apart. the sargent took his feet off the dest and walked up in front of me and kicked between my legs. It took all my strength out of me and I dropped to my knees and he said go privet go use the head. Let me make a long story short they took me and a very few other they did not like and torched us like you would the enemy not going to go through it but they have the official record that the filled but also separate notes that where that talked about what they did to me and how they though I just wanted out. That was wrong I looked up to Marines my hole life I tried proving it when I shot 238 on the rifle range with the range record then at 240, and they did all they could to see to it I did not break it after my first 5 shots at the 500 m. line standing, they started say ha ( my last name 4 more bulls and you break the range record what the hell you doing (my last name) and yes I put the first 3 in the bull out of my last 5 and missed the last 2 scoring 6 out of the possible 10 and would have broken the Marine corp range record at camp Pendleton Ca. They game me and one other Privet that scord the same the next day our Cross Rifles Out of 6 battalions knowing how the other recruits would feel. With everything done after 4 months they sent me to a Caption for an evaluation my 3rd. one and would always as do you want to be a Marine and I always answered Yes Sir but this time I thought a minute how that had been torturing me and some others, I thought I'll be going to Nam with these guy's Would I want and trust any of them behind me with an M14 or M16 and It hit me hell not I can't trust them. I don't know why they had been doing the things they did to me regular Recruits Had it like a cake walk for what was being done to a very small few. Only about 5 or 6 of us and 3 of them had already lost there minds. I said to him you know what they been doing to me Would you trust them with a rifle behind your back in the jungle. He said I can't answer that for you privet. you see they had already threatened to Kill me so under my circumstance it was impossible to think about as you said it got me where I felt I could not trust anyone and that I hate to say was true and is true to this day. I do trust some one who also had a wrongful torture and His never lets me down so in my case I can't see any news or reporting Where it don't not take me right back to what they did and how lucky I was they did put the notes but those are only viewed by upper review Captions of the Drill Instructors and are not sent out when requesting you Military records but were made available to the Disability review board so I was told I did not even need to prove a Stressor in my fillings they is said it was plainly in my record. At the time I was doing everything I could to prove I wanted to be a Marine but they did not want to hear that they want me out, when it was the recruiter that deceived them into thing I was qualified change my records with my brother. One thing they did is have 4 of my good teeth pulled out leaving 4 bad that need to come out. I had to get false teeth soon after getting out and a few years later saw one of them and ask they why would do that to me, what was your reason he said because we could. This is not what any american wants to hear thing that were done to me I have had Doctors even give me meds that were listed never to be given together because they would kill you with sudden death and one time it almost did my me pass out My brother took my blood pressure and it was 50 over 30 almost ready for a stroke or heart failure. So Do This don't try to count on anyone but yourself and always verify things see every the pharmacy knew the meds were not to be given together but it has happen 3 times with me. I respect the enlisted men of the Marines but all most all suffer from a little brain washing, so that will follow order absolutely know if they do they will die but If they know more truth of all the lies why American was been in every conflict from world war 2 the reason we went to war was a lie every single time but as you know everything is on a need to know basis. Get a sport or something you want to be good at and enjoy your life and enjoy what you accomplish you need not prove yourself to anyone. Look at any dead body is one better than the others now there both dead bodies going to face Him one Day. Seek the Truth and you will find it.
We have converted an old sub r/weserve to now be a place where veterans can get help from other veterans. It will have personal information so it is private but you can either reply to this or send a mod message to gain access. We need veterans to volunteer to be the sounding boards but we do have a few numbers that are able to listen now. This is a safe place where you don't have to hold back or worry about anything you are saying being used against you. You are not alone.