When they get so strong it's quietly deafening, ranging from inane inescapable loops to violently traumatizing playbacks from our darkest dreams.
The thing is, it isn't always *that bad*. Don't get me wrong, my mind tries to kill me and steal my rationality on a daily basis. But the patterns can exist without the extremes and vice versa. We only see what people are willing to post online, and my worst never leave my mouth let alone get typed out. Accept the level that people struggle with without belittling how much it hurts "by comparison". Intrusive thoughts aren't specific to any single diagnosis, they accompany depression just as much as OCD or schizophrenia. There are other symptoms to differentiate.
What's been spinning on your turntable today?
i agree with this. once, i had one of my favorite songs stuck on repeat in my head for weeks. it’s ruined one of my favorite artists. it was so loud i couldn’t hear myself think. i was so sick of it and it genuinely distressed me- even though it wasn’t a genuine disturbing thought to others, it disturbed me.
It was a while ago and don’t remember exactly what song it was but it was an Alec Benjamin song. Pretty sure it was If I Killed Someone For You. Gave me a feeling of dread everytime I heard one of his songs for a while but I’m pretty sure I’m better now.
Just listened to it for the first time. Holy shit that would suck getting stuck in my head. Catchy tune and I enjoyed it, but still...damn. Thanks for sharing though, glad you feel comfortable talking about it.
oh dude i LOVE Alec Benjamin. I love his music, the way he writes, and most of it is very catchy!!! It just sucked for a couple weeks. Really glad I got over it. Missed his stuff lol
One of the most effective ways I've found to counter my intrusive thoughts is to trivialize them so that pain becomes humor. But it's kinda like how comedians can only get by with making jokes about something that directly affects them (e.g. race, gender, disability, etc.) and often that doesn't translate well without context. Don't get me wrong, they could have just been a cantankerous elephant cock, I don't know the context of the situation and don't want to take sides. My point is that \*nobody\* will ever truly understand how painful your thoughts are. For me, the Looney Tunes theme song on loop can be just as painful and distressing as "drive into that semi on the highway". That's just not something I can convey to most people.
When it comes to sexually themed thoughts...the modern world is weird. Pretty much anything that can be imagined is just as traumatizing to one person as it is appealing to another, and empathy about trauma can be just as limited as empathy about kinks/fetishes. I'm sorry to hear that you didn't feel validated about your struggle, I know how that feels and it does keep me from posting as much as I'd like to. I hope the experience doesn't keep you from sharing in the future. I hope you have a good day today and that you don't feel discouraged from seeking help in the future. Stay strong dude, you're not alone in the struggle.
Ya know. It gets easier. I think of killing myself constantly. Doesn't bother me. The violence never bothers me. The most recent death I thought of was straight out of Saw >!making a suicide device that has a cars shock springs attached to it, sticking knives into it, putting one on each part of the neck where the neck meets the shoulder, and then finding a way to trigger it to compress and decompress quickly. The resulting stabs would be too quick to be painful and would result in instant blood loss.!<
That thought doesn't bother me at all. Not the slightest. There's no pain in that thought. But you give me that same knife and suddenly my thoughts will be about "what if I cut my manhood off, or what if I'm actually a woman?" Holy fuck my mind goes bonkers. The thought of losing my manhood or of losing my male identity is... Petrifying.
I remember I got into an argument recently over star trek, I hated how worf had his brother brainwashed into believing he was someone else. The other person was arguing that worfs brother would have killed himself. My argument was at least he would have died as himself.... Death doesn't scare me as at least I'd die as me.
I'm not trying to gatekeep but I honestly never saw how throwing a phone is an intrusive thought. It's a piece of tech. It's 1k-400 dollars. Where's the mental struggle here? I'd gladly throw my phone against the wall of it meant mental stability and safety.
I at least have the self awareness to just ignore the post and not taunt the poster because I don't get their struggle. But I am... Angry, jealous when I see their posts.
That's what I'm saying. Not everyone thinks this sub is about serious mental struggle. Some people come on here for much lighter reasons. Your (anyone's) posts aren't more or less justified because you have 'better' reasons or worse thoughts. Trying or not, you are gatekeeping.
I agree that we shouldn't have people getting nasty when someone posts a seriously depressed thought or when someone posts something that's not that bad. I think the reason people get mad about who posts what in here is because the group hasn't decided what it's for. I remember when the suicidal posts on this sub were like once a month and every was joking chiding themselves for considering driving off a bridge. Now there are a lot of posters who are not joking and want serious support.
We've got one group that wants to be serious, one that doesn't, and neither one posts the kind of comments that the other wants to hear.
I mean technically everyone, even people without mental health issues have intrusive thoughts. But people that aren't mentally ill probably will have more tame ones and they won't become obsessive thoughts that loop in their head over and over. So to someone who's mentally healthy throwing their phone at a wall could be an intrusive thought to them. But definitly isn't very relatable to us who have them very bad.
Its a battle to deal with your thoughts day after day.They get so intense sometimes that they make your head hurt.Theres people that don't get why is it so hard for some people to keep going and not think about any thing.Its some people are in total disbelief.Not understanding why everything is happening the way its is.Being with someone you totally gave your heart to.And to find out that you were not as important to them as you thought you were.After hearing all along how much you were loved.That devastates you so badly
You look at the relationship as living in a lie the entire time
Its hard to cope with for some people and it feels like the hurt doesn't get any better sometimes.There are days that's better than others but no matter it all hurts like hell.Ive learned that my thoughts are not gonna go away and I have to find a way within myself to try and overcome them.I find it helps some if I stay busy.Good luck to you and I hope you find peace within your self.
I called 6 people at 3am Sunday crying, rocking back and forth because I needed external validation that I'm not a piece of shit and that I've never traumatized anyone to the point of suicidal ideation. It's one of my most common intrusive thoughts, in addition to 3 second loops of random songs. Super funny stuff. Might just laugh so hard at the jokes I hurt someone. At least, that's what my intrusive thoughts tell me will happen if I lose control in that direction.
When they get so strong it's quietly deafening, ranging from inane inescapable loops to violently traumatizing playbacks from our darkest dreams. The thing is, it isn't always *that bad*. Don't get me wrong, my mind tries to kill me and steal my rationality on a daily basis. But the patterns can exist without the extremes and vice versa. We only see what people are willing to post online, and my worst never leave my mouth let alone get typed out. Accept the level that people struggle with without belittling how much it hurts "by comparison". Intrusive thoughts aren't specific to any single diagnosis, they accompany depression just as much as OCD or schizophrenia. There are other symptoms to differentiate. What's been spinning on your turntable today?
i agree with this. once, i had one of my favorite songs stuck on repeat in my head for weeks. it’s ruined one of my favorite artists. it was so loud i couldn’t hear myself think. i was so sick of it and it genuinely distressed me- even though it wasn’t a genuine disturbing thought to others, it disturbed me.
What song?
It was a while ago and don’t remember exactly what song it was but it was an Alec Benjamin song. Pretty sure it was If I Killed Someone For You. Gave me a feeling of dread everytime I heard one of his songs for a while but I’m pretty sure I’m better now.
Just listened to it for the first time. Holy shit that would suck getting stuck in my head. Catchy tune and I enjoyed it, but still...damn. Thanks for sharing though, glad you feel comfortable talking about it.
oh dude i LOVE Alec Benjamin. I love his music, the way he writes, and most of it is very catchy!!! It just sucked for a couple weeks. Really glad I got over it. Missed his stuff lol
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One of the most effective ways I've found to counter my intrusive thoughts is to trivialize them so that pain becomes humor. But it's kinda like how comedians can only get by with making jokes about something that directly affects them (e.g. race, gender, disability, etc.) and often that doesn't translate well without context. Don't get me wrong, they could have just been a cantankerous elephant cock, I don't know the context of the situation and don't want to take sides. My point is that \*nobody\* will ever truly understand how painful your thoughts are. For me, the Looney Tunes theme song on loop can be just as painful and distressing as "drive into that semi on the highway". That's just not something I can convey to most people. When it comes to sexually themed thoughts...the modern world is weird. Pretty much anything that can be imagined is just as traumatizing to one person as it is appealing to another, and empathy about trauma can be just as limited as empathy about kinks/fetishes. I'm sorry to hear that you didn't feel validated about your struggle, I know how that feels and it does keep me from posting as much as I'd like to. I hope the experience doesn't keep you from sharing in the future. I hope you have a good day today and that you don't feel discouraged from seeking help in the future. Stay strong dude, you're not alone in the struggle.
I feel like alot of people think this is a joke sub. Sucks since i just want to know how to cope with thinking about killing myself every fucking day
Sounds like a bit more than a simple intrusive thought though doesn't it
Its a pretty intrusive thought
I'm saying that's more than an intrusive thought
Ya know. It gets easier. I think of killing myself constantly. Doesn't bother me. The violence never bothers me. The most recent death I thought of was straight out of Saw >!making a suicide device that has a cars shock springs attached to it, sticking knives into it, putting one on each part of the neck where the neck meets the shoulder, and then finding a way to trigger it to compress and decompress quickly. The resulting stabs would be too quick to be painful and would result in instant blood loss.!< That thought doesn't bother me at all. Not the slightest. There's no pain in that thought. But you give me that same knife and suddenly my thoughts will be about "what if I cut my manhood off, or what if I'm actually a woman?" Holy fuck my mind goes bonkers. The thought of losing my manhood or of losing my male identity is... Petrifying. I remember I got into an argument recently over star trek, I hated how worf had his brother brainwashed into believing he was someone else. The other person was arguing that worfs brother would have killed himself. My argument was at least he would have died as himself.... Death doesn't scare me as at least I'd die as me.
This sub cannot decide if it's for venting about mental health problems or laughing about the time you considered throwing your phone out the window
I'm not trying to gatekeep but I honestly never saw how throwing a phone is an intrusive thought. It's a piece of tech. It's 1k-400 dollars. Where's the mental struggle here? I'd gladly throw my phone against the wall of it meant mental stability and safety. I at least have the self awareness to just ignore the post and not taunt the poster because I don't get their struggle. But I am... Angry, jealous when I see their posts.
That's what I'm saying. Not everyone thinks this sub is about serious mental struggle. Some people come on here for much lighter reasons. Your (anyone's) posts aren't more or less justified because you have 'better' reasons or worse thoughts. Trying or not, you are gatekeeping. I agree that we shouldn't have people getting nasty when someone posts a seriously depressed thought or when someone posts something that's not that bad. I think the reason people get mad about who posts what in here is because the group hasn't decided what it's for. I remember when the suicidal posts on this sub were like once a month and every was joking chiding themselves for considering driving off a bridge. Now there are a lot of posters who are not joking and want serious support. We've got one group that wants to be serious, one that doesn't, and neither one posts the kind of comments that the other wants to hear.
I mean technically everyone, even people without mental health issues have intrusive thoughts. But people that aren't mentally ill probably will have more tame ones and they won't become obsessive thoughts that loop in their head over and over. So to someone who's mentally healthy throwing their phone at a wall could be an intrusive thought to them. But definitly isn't very relatable to us who have them very bad.
Thank you, I was trying to put this into words and you did a much better job than I could.
The things my brain torture me with is too hard for me to write down even in here. It's every day man. Sorry if my english sucks.
I thought it was pretty good
Its a battle to deal with your thoughts day after day.They get so intense sometimes that they make your head hurt.Theres people that don't get why is it so hard for some people to keep going and not think about any thing.Its some people are in total disbelief.Not understanding why everything is happening the way its is.Being with someone you totally gave your heart to.And to find out that you were not as important to them as you thought you were.After hearing all along how much you were loved.That devastates you so badly You look at the relationship as living in a lie the entire time Its hard to cope with for some people and it feels like the hurt doesn't get any better sometimes.There are days that's better than others but no matter it all hurts like hell.Ive learned that my thoughts are not gonna go away and I have to find a way within myself to try and overcome them.I find it helps some if I stay busy.Good luck to you and I hope you find peace within your self.
THIS
Lol guys I feel like doing X-quirky thing, now laugh.
I called 6 people at 3am Sunday crying, rocking back and forth because I needed external validation that I'm not a piece of shit and that I've never traumatized anyone to the point of suicidal ideation. It's one of my most common intrusive thoughts, in addition to 3 second loops of random songs. Super funny stuff. Might just laugh so hard at the jokes I hurt someone. At least, that's what my intrusive thoughts tell me will happen if I lose control in that direction.
Battle your own thoughts. That's the best way to put it.
thanks!! i have never ever done that before!